No Sleep
Its interesting the thoughts that run through your head with no sleep. Its like you have no control. Its more like pure emotion than actual logical thought.
I'm watching alice in chains videos right now. There's something wonderfully tragic about the way he sings. My song is the same as always. The quality of my life continues to improve and the depth of my fall accelerates.
All I can think about is blood and fire. I don't fight it anymore, or search for a source, or a reason. But as always the moment passes. Looking into myself frightens me enough to find other things to occupy my conscious thought. Around and around we go.
I think 'again' is my favorite of their videos.
I don't know what to do about my girlfriend. She'd never begin to understand any of this. Of course she would be caring and supportive, but she wouldn't get it. Part of me wants to rub it in her face. I honestly question my motives for a lot of things. Her friends call me the 'ideal' boyfriend, but is it the real thing? I can be a cold calculating bastard and I know exactly how to make her think I love her. Maybe how to make myself think I love her? Or is it genuine? Fuck if i know.
I wonder if I've managed to lose my soul somewhere down the line. Or maybe I'm just too tired right now to feel it.
I'm watching alice in chains videos right now. There's something wonderfully tragic about the way he sings. My song is the same as always. The quality of my life continues to improve and the depth of my fall accelerates.
All I can think about is blood and fire. I don't fight it anymore, or search for a source, or a reason. But as always the moment passes. Looking into myself frightens me enough to find other things to occupy my conscious thought. Around and around we go.
I think 'again' is my favorite of their videos.
I don't know what to do about my girlfriend. She'd never begin to understand any of this. Of course she would be caring and supportive, but she wouldn't get it. Part of me wants to rub it in her face. I honestly question my motives for a lot of things. Her friends call me the 'ideal' boyfriend, but is it the real thing? I can be a cold calculating bastard and I know exactly how to make her think I love her. Maybe how to make myself think I love her? Or is it genuine? Fuck if i know.
I wonder if I've managed to lose my soul somewhere down the line. Or maybe I'm just too tired right now to feel it.