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ahhh...why have i been such a downer lately? ihave no idea. this is definitely not good. work is good, it coule be better, i feel like i get the shaft, and that i always miss out on the important things to do, i just need to be able to focus on what to do andto just be myself. Gosh i feel just so alone. I know that I have Chris, but I need girls, I want my best friend back. Maybe I will try to call her see how things are going, yes I will try on Wednesday on the way back to work. yes thats what I'll do. Sometimes I feel like I don't give enough, and that I am not being myself. Why do I shy away from people . I dont like getting close to people I feel like they are going to leave me. I miss my little and my big, I feel like a friggin debbie downer and I hate it. ahhh I think II'm going to take the next couple of days and just relax, just be by myself not talk to anyone or anything. i feel so impersonal, and so fake. who am i? what am i? god i feel like abitch sometimes. what has happened to me. ergh1 i need to snap out of this crap! this is not me, what happened to the free loving person who was. what happened to the girl who was always there for her friends. yuck!!! i need to snap out of this crap! like whoa!
ready go.
ready go.