for jaime
happy belated birthday.
i'm sorry i'm sucha shitty friend.
i completely know what its like to feel helpless when you feel like
you're doing so much for someone and they make you feel like you don't matter.
i know what it feels like to never be enough for someone.
i'm sorry.
i'm such a hypocrite, u know? like i absolutely hated it when i would get treated like that. but i can't help it.
i'm so sad. wah wah wah....
i went to nancy and told her how awful i felt for the way i had treated you today...but its like my mind is in careless mode. i act on and say shit w/o even thinking.
you of all people deserve better. you have been so kind and generous to me. please don't take it personally.
i promise i'm going to try harder.
but today was just so hard b/c ....just b/c i was still so angry to be alive.
its just hard to explain.
i'm sorry.
i hope you had a good birthday anyway
and i hope ken got you a lot of cute presents.
i'm sorry i'm sucha shitty friend.
i completely know what its like to feel helpless when you feel like
you're doing so much for someone and they make you feel like you don't matter.
i know what it feels like to never be enough for someone.
i'm sorry.
i'm such a hypocrite, u know? like i absolutely hated it when i would get treated like that. but i can't help it.
i'm so sad. wah wah wah....
i went to nancy and told her how awful i felt for the way i had treated you today...but its like my mind is in careless mode. i act on and say shit w/o even thinking.
you of all people deserve better. you have been so kind and generous to me. please don't take it personally.
i promise i'm going to try harder.
but today was just so hard b/c ....just b/c i was still so angry to be alive.
its just hard to explain.
i'm sorry.
i hope you had a good birthday anyway
and i hope ken got you a lot of cute presents.