The hardest thing about dying is knowing youll never see the light of day

[xtake_it_awayx3]

i havent updated in like 2 weeks. courtney was riding my ass about that dude. easy beast i was getting to it. i got kicked off the damn computer every day. it was bull. these past weeks have been really bad. my life is a fucking shit hole and it sucks so bad. my mom wont let me do shit i absolutely hate her right now. she tells me to get out and do stuff with people and go places but then when i ask her she always says no. i asked her if i could go to the show in sanford on wednesday and she said no. i got really pissed and i told her that i give up and i dont even know why i bother asking her to do anything because she always says no. then i got up and slammed the door and walked out of the house. i went to my new house and sat on the porch for a while and just thought about everything and how gay it is. i came back and she asked me if i was mad. i was like wow what the hell do you think. then i tried walking away and she grabbed my arm. i wanted to fucking run this is so gay i hate it. i got yelled at again today. my mom wanted me to go with her and i didnt want to go so then she started yelling at me and saying how i never get out and that i need to do more stuff. then i told her how i always ask to do shit and she always says no. its so gay i hate this god damn house. my dad asked me what the hell was wrong with me and asked if i was depressed and why i am so mad all the time. i really dont think they understand anything. i hate school it needs to die. people suck. i want to drop out next year so i dont have to deal with half of this shit.
I need a man...
I really hate feeling this way

Well i need what you owe
Will you pay me back in bandaged covered wrists
Dont you know
The feeling of a cutthroat lover's kiss
Please dont go
Breaking other hearts just like this, just like this