shea didnt return my calls
Yea shea didnt fucking return my calls or anything so i was like fine fuck you....im tired for apologizing....sometimes i wish i never went out with him....he stresses me out and then when we actuallyn do have a goodtime hell do something to ruin it or well fucking fight over some stupid shit...it seems that hes more into his friends now than me...hell tell ME hes too tired to do anything after work but hell do shit with his friends.,..its a fucking miracle all of a sudden he finds the energy...vuala!!!cocksucker...i told him while we were "cuddling" atleast thats what he says we were doing....he was fast asleep..all i wanted to do was touch him. now he just...makes me not want to try..i think im done trying with him...im going to stop being affectionate....im always thinking about ending it but them something comes over me or he saves himself by saying something sweet...i fucking hate that....HE DOESNT ACT LIKE HE FUCKING CARES..when i say that hes like "dont say that, i was worried about you when you went to go get your surgery" WELL NO SHIT...EVEN IF IT WAS SOMEONE I DIDNT KNOW I WOULD BE WORRIED...I WOULD BE WORRIED IF MY CAT GOT SURGERY... but of course the one time you show me that you care....IM FUCKING ON DRUGS!!!!! what a surprise....if you dont start showing interest....your done buddy...and that aint no lie...to be honest i thinkk he couldnt live without me. oh well....he went out with shawn tonight and didnt fucking call me at all ...he was supposed to come back here if he was aloud to but of course he didnt call and even let me know he wasnt coming back...i swear...he makes me a bitch i hate him