everyone wants to rule the world...
It's been way too long since I've posted in this thing.
Updates:
I'm still living at home (yea and miserable), been dating Melissa for almost 2 months now and am going to miss her terribly while she's away at school, I quit ROCHE BROS finally for Hannaford Supermarket, read so many books, quit exxon, my car passed inspection, and nothing else is new. Tess had her baby boy, Treyvor, who is adorable and a major love in my life.
I can't help but feel my life is starting to get good, yet falling apart at the same time and I have no one I can call on to talk to about it. Tess' wife, Berta, pretty much thinks I want Tess, like HARD CORE and that's not it at all. She's one of my best friends, and I like to joke around with her, I'm sorry for Berta that she's that insecure and immature that she tries to make Tess hate me because she doesn't trust me or anything like that. A part of me is missing and I don't think I will figure it out until I get to go back to school and get a degree then be able to get a real job and a life that I want to live. I would personally like to move back to Vermont in the next 2-3 years, not sure though. If Melissa and I stay together for that long, I think she will move with me, which will be good. :) Things are so good with her, finally, I have overcome everything that was making me run away from her. She leaves for school tomorrow, which is in some ways, killing me because she is my sanity in this hell-hole that I call my house. Living with a few alcoholics who don't care about anything or anyone but themselves, an asshole who I HATE and have said it out loud to him, and two of the most important women in my life, my mom and my sister. They both have their moments when I can't handle them and/or stand them, but they are very important to me.
I know this is choppy, unorganized, but if you don't like it, then don't read it. It's all my thoughts written out and I don't care. I wish I had more friends around here, I need to make some new ones. If only I could afford to go back to school, I'd meet some new people and get out more. It's different knowing people from clubs and such, you only see them the nights you go out, not outside of the club. Sad, but true.
Okay, enough rambling, night.
Updates:
I'm still living at home (yea and miserable), been dating Melissa for almost 2 months now and am going to miss her terribly while she's away at school, I quit ROCHE BROS finally for Hannaford Supermarket, read so many books, quit exxon, my car passed inspection, and nothing else is new. Tess had her baby boy, Treyvor, who is adorable and a major love in my life.
I can't help but feel my life is starting to get good, yet falling apart at the same time and I have no one I can call on to talk to about it. Tess' wife, Berta, pretty much thinks I want Tess, like HARD CORE and that's not it at all. She's one of my best friends, and I like to joke around with her, I'm sorry for Berta that she's that insecure and immature that she tries to make Tess hate me because she doesn't trust me or anything like that. A part of me is missing and I don't think I will figure it out until I get to go back to school and get a degree then be able to get a real job and a life that I want to live. I would personally like to move back to Vermont in the next 2-3 years, not sure though. If Melissa and I stay together for that long, I think she will move with me, which will be good. :) Things are so good with her, finally, I have overcome everything that was making me run away from her. She leaves for school tomorrow, which is in some ways, killing me because she is my sanity in this hell-hole that I call my house. Living with a few alcoholics who don't care about anything or anyone but themselves, an asshole who I HATE and have said it out loud to him, and two of the most important women in my life, my mom and my sister. They both have their moments when I can't handle them and/or stand them, but they are very important to me.
I know this is choppy, unorganized, but if you don't like it, then don't read it. It's all my thoughts written out and I don't care. I wish I had more friends around here, I need to make some new ones. If only I could afford to go back to school, I'd meet some new people and get out more. It's different knowing people from clubs and such, you only see them the nights you go out, not outside of the club. Sad, but true.
Okay, enough rambling, night.