i feel like my head is going to fall off...
first day of training today. i made $35. just to fill out online surveys.
idk what it was about today but all the sudden i started missing samy really bad. it's weird cuz i haven't thought about him all weekend and then there was his face in my mind.
..i'm scared to think about him. i don't want to miss him and know he doesn't miss me. i guess i just have to keep myself occupied long enough to forget how saticfying my life could be with him.
..i guess i do miss being whole.. but i have to let it go.. like everything else in my life-- i just have to let it go.
idk what it was about today but all the sudden i started missing samy really bad. it's weird cuz i haven't thought about him all weekend and then there was his face in my mind.
..i'm scared to think about him. i don't want to miss him and know he doesn't miss me. i guess i just have to keep myself occupied long enough to forget how saticfying my life could be with him.
..i guess i do miss being whole.. but i have to let it go.. like everything else in my life-- i just have to let it go.