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I have seriously been neglecting writing in here ... but with good reason I promise.
I am at a serious crossroads. I put in my two weeks notice last Friday at my current job with PLM Families Together, which is where I comitted to volunteer for a year with the Jesuit Volunteer Corp. I work as a case worker for homeless families and also run an After School Program. I just got hired at Archangel Promotions, promoting non-profits such as D.A.R.E. and Toys for Tots. It sounds like a cool enough job. Pays $300-$400/wk.
Positive:
I get to make some $$
Less stressful job
learning something new
figuring out a way to get a car
firguring out a way to get an apartment
Negative:
Leaving JVC
No transportation
make commission to start
JVC Values:
Simple Living
Community
Spirituality
Social Justice.
In JVC we commit not only to the job but to living by these four values-- that Jesuit priests live by. It is so hard. I really intended to be able to do this... but I just don't think that I can.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It is an understatement to say that I am in complete agony over this decision. Me leaving affects so so many people. It affects my community ...they don't want me to leave and I know it will leave a hole in a community that up until now has seemed to get a long just fine. I am just tired. I am tired of fair-trade, shade grown, cage free, recycled, bio-fueled, bull shit!
I mean yes, I understand why all of these things are great and more people should be environmentally friendly and blah blah blah. But I honestly feel like ME and MY COMMUNITY do not get the point of simple living in the fact that people that are poor DO NOT buy organic groceries. That is simply a by-product of our upper middle class life-styles.
I feel like we are missing out on a big part of this. I feel like I can't do this anymore not only because of my community but also because of my shitty ass financial situation.
I thought that JVC would be able to help me defer my loans. In fact they said that yes we are able to help you with your loans. I didn't really ask any other questions beyond that. When it came time to get my loans deferred.....come to find out they can only really help me with my Federal loans, not my private loans with Sallie Mae.
I paid the forbearance fee of $100 to Sallie Mae, which gave me six months. Problem is that time is up in June and JVC isn't over until August. My decision to leave is very much based on this.
Everyone keeps making me feel bad. Some days I wish that I were leaving tomorrow .. but that doesn't help me either because then I'd be homeless. Like actually homeless.
I have to stay living with the girls for as long as JVC will let me ... and keep coming up with reasons why I can't stay and talking my way around all of it. I have to keep everyone calm because I still need a place to live, bottom line.
Now, the Catholic Worker house has agreed to meet with me tomorrow to work out living arrangments. Brian (at JVC) said that they might be able to give me until Easter weekend. I'm crossing my fingers for this because then that will still give me a month with the Catholic Workers and more time to save up money for rent. HA! not to mention a car.
I don't know how I am going to make this work ... but I am. pray for me. ...here goes.
I am at a serious crossroads. I put in my two weeks notice last Friday at my current job with PLM Families Together, which is where I comitted to volunteer for a year with the Jesuit Volunteer Corp. I work as a case worker for homeless families and also run an After School Program. I just got hired at Archangel Promotions, promoting non-profits such as D.A.R.E. and Toys for Tots. It sounds like a cool enough job. Pays $300-$400/wk.
Positive:
I get to make some $$
Less stressful job
learning something new
figuring out a way to get a car
firguring out a way to get an apartment
Negative:
Leaving JVC
No transportation
make commission to start
JVC Values:
Simple Living
Community
Spirituality
Social Justice.
In JVC we commit not only to the job but to living by these four values-- that Jesuit priests live by. It is so hard. I really intended to be able to do this... but I just don't think that I can.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It is an understatement to say that I am in complete agony over this decision. Me leaving affects so so many people. It affects my community ...they don't want me to leave and I know it will leave a hole in a community that up until now has seemed to get a long just fine. I am just tired. I am tired of fair-trade, shade grown, cage free, recycled, bio-fueled, bull shit!
I mean yes, I understand why all of these things are great and more people should be environmentally friendly and blah blah blah. But I honestly feel like ME and MY COMMUNITY do not get the point of simple living in the fact that people that are poor DO NOT buy organic groceries. That is simply a by-product of our upper middle class life-styles.
I feel like we are missing out on a big part of this. I feel like I can't do this anymore not only because of my community but also because of my shitty ass financial situation.
I thought that JVC would be able to help me defer my loans. In fact they said that yes we are able to help you with your loans. I didn't really ask any other questions beyond that. When it came time to get my loans deferred.....come to find out they can only really help me with my Federal loans, not my private loans with Sallie Mae.
I paid the forbearance fee of $100 to Sallie Mae, which gave me six months. Problem is that time is up in June and JVC isn't over until August. My decision to leave is very much based on this.
Everyone keeps making me feel bad. Some days I wish that I were leaving tomorrow .. but that doesn't help me either because then I'd be homeless. Like actually homeless.
I have to stay living with the girls for as long as JVC will let me ... and keep coming up with reasons why I can't stay and talking my way around all of it. I have to keep everyone calm because I still need a place to live, bottom line.
Now, the Catholic Worker house has agreed to meet with me tomorrow to work out living arrangments. Brian (at JVC) said that they might be able to give me until Easter weekend. I'm crossing my fingers for this because then that will still give me a month with the Catholic Workers and more time to save up money for rent. HA! not to mention a car.
I don't know how I am going to make this work ... but I am. pray for me. ...here goes.