OMG AN UPDATE!!!!
IM BACK HOME!!! in b-totha-rookswoodits so much harder to get all your stuff settled into a small space.. and be able to keep it clean and stuff.. a lot harder i tells ya.. i haven't really done much at all since ive been home except throw out some resumes.. shop.. and tim was over for the weekend hehe so that took 3 days. tomorow im going to toss out a few more resumes after the ellen show..
okay so A friend of my moms should be on tomorows episode, she got to go with a friend of hers because her friends husband couldn't go.. so thats pretty cool! and its the 12 days of giveaways so shes probably gonna get some cooolass stuff! like today she gave away a portable satelite "xm" radio or something with a free subscription for a year.. to everyone.. AND! this really fuckin nice "ijoy" massager chair.. and a couple other things like a game and a martina mcbride doll.. but yah pretty much a grand worth of stuff *thumbs up*
ya and then i get to clean this tiny assed basement of my crap with my mom (bless her heart <3) i love that woman so much im glad im home.. i think she was bored without me. i haven't spent much time with friends.. although my second night back alli came over and then marc and hingley came by too.. so it that was pretty cool :)
9 days till christmas.. i got presents for the kids(nephews).. nintendogs on NDS for dustin and eric.. and i got evan this coolass spongebob toy that came with him.. patrick riding a bike with a kite tied round his belly.. and some dude you can shoot out of a cannon.. hehe.. i cant wait to play with it! im sure dennis will love it too.
i NEED to put my life into order.. i feel useless enough right now because i don't have a job, so i have so much time to waste.. that i just don't do anything.. which is getting me into a rut.. there are points where im enjoying it.. but for the most part im sick of doing nothing.. at least when im working after work im more productive.. and i actually do stuff.. ie clean, sew, draw (which i havent done in a good while) i really wish i could be more creative though.. i bought wizards at value village for like 2 bucks! i had never seen it before but i thoroughly enjoyed it.. and i loved the artwork.. old school animation like that gets me goin.
ive found when im working i don't even really bother going online as much.. which almost makes me think what would be the point of having it and paying for it.. when i could actually get off my ass and go somewhere to use it.. BUT!.. i do kinda have that withdrawl thing goin on which is sad but what can you do.. its hard not being around something youre around pretty much every day.. BLAR!lsh flajshflahsd so many things i NEED to change about myself.. but its so hard.. and cold.. i need to excersize.. big time.. but atm there is no motivation. i don't know.. blah.. i don't even go to concerts anymore.. i never know who id want to go see.. all my friends are into metal.. and well i never got into it that big.. i mean i like it.. but ive just kinda stuck to psychopathic these past few years and stuff i already listened to.. i lose all my music so often that i don't really have much time to check anything new out because im always trying to get all my music back.. which is a bummer..
a sign i need to start buying more CD's... even if i never play em.. i can bring em places with me.. without having to burn all the time.. and they would probably get scratched A LOT less.. i dunno.. i still feel i would rather spend my money on other things.. holy talk about ranting this evening. im burning out.. and i haven't really talked too much to anybody about anything lately.. its been more like hey how ya been.. whats new.. allright see ya bye.. i don't even rant to tim about this kinda stuff.. its just not that easy for me anymore i guess.. i realized today how much i don't keep in touch with ANYONE from high school anymore.. not even crystall.. which i really should because she has been my longest running friend.. and still is..
i also feel like i should save my money for a couple years.. and then move away for a year maybe two.. id hate being away from my family for so long.. but i think it would be good to start fresh.. go somewhere where no one knows ya.. ya know?... i wonder if i would change... i also wonder where id go.. because i know if im only gone for a year.. id wanna go outside of canada.. but im not too sure how id be able to deal with that.. it might also be a long process to go through who knows.. hmm this shall be something i ponder in my sleep tonight. which i should be doing soon..
ill try and update more.. even though i dont think many people read this..
okay so A friend of my moms should be on tomorows episode, she got to go with a friend of hers because her friends husband couldn't go.. so thats pretty cool! and its the 12 days of giveaways so shes probably gonna get some cooolass stuff! like today she gave away a portable satelite "xm" radio or something with a free subscription for a year.. to everyone.. AND! this really fuckin nice "ijoy" massager chair.. and a couple other things like a game and a martina mcbride doll.. but yah pretty much a grand worth of stuff *thumbs up*
ya and then i get to clean this tiny assed basement of my crap with my mom (bless her heart <3) i love that woman so much im glad im home.. i think she was bored without me. i haven't spent much time with friends.. although my second night back alli came over and then marc and hingley came by too.. so it that was pretty cool :)
9 days till christmas.. i got presents for the kids(nephews).. nintendogs on NDS for dustin and eric.. and i got evan this coolass spongebob toy that came with him.. patrick riding a bike with a kite tied round his belly.. and some dude you can shoot out of a cannon.. hehe.. i cant wait to play with it! im sure dennis will love it too.
i NEED to put my life into order.. i feel useless enough right now because i don't have a job, so i have so much time to waste.. that i just don't do anything.. which is getting me into a rut.. there are points where im enjoying it.. but for the most part im sick of doing nothing.. at least when im working after work im more productive.. and i actually do stuff.. ie clean, sew, draw (which i havent done in a good while) i really wish i could be more creative though.. i bought wizards at value village for like 2 bucks! i had never seen it before but i thoroughly enjoyed it.. and i loved the artwork.. old school animation like that gets me goin.
ive found when im working i don't even really bother going online as much.. which almost makes me think what would be the point of having it and paying for it.. when i could actually get off my ass and go somewhere to use it.. BUT!.. i do kinda have that withdrawl thing goin on which is sad but what can you do.. its hard not being around something youre around pretty much every day.. BLAR!lsh flajshflahsd so many things i NEED to change about myself.. but its so hard.. and cold.. i need to excersize.. big time.. but atm there is no motivation. i don't know.. blah.. i don't even go to concerts anymore.. i never know who id want to go see.. all my friends are into metal.. and well i never got into it that big.. i mean i like it.. but ive just kinda stuck to psychopathic these past few years and stuff i already listened to.. i lose all my music so often that i don't really have much time to check anything new out because im always trying to get all my music back.. which is a bummer..
a sign i need to start buying more CD's... even if i never play em.. i can bring em places with me.. without having to burn all the time.. and they would probably get scratched A LOT less.. i dunno.. i still feel i would rather spend my money on other things.. holy talk about ranting this evening. im burning out.. and i haven't really talked too much to anybody about anything lately.. its been more like hey how ya been.. whats new.. allright see ya bye.. i don't even rant to tim about this kinda stuff.. its just not that easy for me anymore i guess.. i realized today how much i don't keep in touch with ANYONE from high school anymore.. not even crystall.. which i really should because she has been my longest running friend.. and still is..
i also feel like i should save my money for a couple years.. and then move away for a year maybe two.. id hate being away from my family for so long.. but i think it would be good to start fresh.. go somewhere where no one knows ya.. ya know?... i wonder if i would change... i also wonder where id go.. because i know if im only gone for a year.. id wanna go outside of canada.. but im not too sure how id be able to deal with that.. it might also be a long process to go through who knows.. hmm this shall be something i ponder in my sleep tonight. which i should be doing soon..
ill try and update more.. even though i dont think many people read this..