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Last night and today sucked completely then it all got better around 2. I got no sleep. I was woken up by my phone at 2:15, singing "I'm hanging on and nothing's gonna stop me, anyway..." by Cheyenne Kimball. I didn't answer the first time, then I realized it was going off again right away, so I picked to hear Dennis' voice on the other line. He had found out some terrible news and it put him in the worst position ever for him and I. Him and I both got no sleep. I eventually went over there at 6:50 to talk to him. I cried and he held me and what-not. I left and went to Sarah's house because I knew it was the only house I could really go to for help so early in the morning. I would fall asleep in her bed and wake up sniffling and crying all over again. I couldn't deal with it and she could hear me, so she eventually woke up and talked to me and helped me calm down. We got up. Watched Benchwarmers. I love that movie! My favorite movie so far. It's soooo funny. Then we decided to put on this glitter gel stuff that helps you get tanner, so we layed out in the sun for a little bit, then it got too hot, so we went inside. Watched Peter Pan, which we both fell asleep too. I kept texting Dennis, even though I knew he was asleep and wouldn't respond. I was woken up by the wonderful and feeling of my cell phone vibrating in my cleavage, lol. Dennis had finally texted me back!! I was SOOO excited! I left around 1:30, got home and around 2, Dennis came over. I was so excited, relieved, but yet nervous on seeing him. I cried and he just held me. Off track.. when I was at Sarah's got sick because I was so nervous and my stomach was completely empty. So I've lost 3pds and that's no good for me. But anyways... Dennis and I figured this out for the most part. I DON'T want to lose him ever. He's the most important thing to me right, so if I seem like I'm isolating myself from everyone, it's because I'm fixing my life and trying to get my head back on straight. Right now, Dennis is my number one priority! I couldn't have done anything without him and I still can't. I love him SOO Much!
Right now.. my baby, is asleep in my bed. Underneath the blankets. He's so adorable! I love watching him when he sleeps.. he looks so peaceful and cute.
Dennis.. I LOVE YOU!! Even though we're in the same room right now, I still miss you like crazy. You're my everything. My whole world. I love you more than anything. I'm never getting rid of you in any way or form. I can't live without you and I'll find no other guy that could EVER compare to you. You're the greatest guy ever. I love you soo much!!
-Love, Dennis' Duckie!-
1/6/06
FOEVER
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ALWAYS
Right now.. my baby, is asleep in my bed. Underneath the blankets. He's so adorable! I love watching him when he sleeps.. he looks so peaceful and cute.
Dennis.. I LOVE YOU!! Even though we're in the same room right now, I still miss you like crazy. You're my everything. My whole world. I love you more than anything. I'm never getting rid of you in any way or form. I can't live without you and I'll find no other guy that could EVER compare to you. You're the greatest guy ever. I love you soo much!!
-Love, Dennis' Duckie!-
1/6/06
FOEVER
&
ALWAYS