Weekend update
Friday
Well today was interesting..I woke up around 8 because I had a crosscountry schooling to go to in carlisle at 9. When I got at the barn my horse was already tacked up and freaking out on the cross ties. He doesn't do well with other people doing things to him he doesn't understand..i wouldn't blame him. They had all the wrong boots on him and everything but i wasn't about to bitch about because i guess marina changed her mind about the time to leave. So Kristin and I rushed to get our horses on the trailer and then jetted out of there. When we got there we hopped on and did a little warm up and then off we went. Everything went pretty good. I had a few refusals and Corrine used me as a guinea pig for some of the jumps and one of them was way to fucking big so i fell off. It wasn't a bad fall but it sure as hell woke me up. Otherwise it was a good day for riding, he was a bit fast and semi out of control after the jumps but i dealt and rode my best at the time. When we were heading back to the trailers we were all talking about our horses issues and everyone agreed that maybe i should get a new horse. It upset because i found nothing wrong with my horse. I had so many questions bubbling in my head i just couldn't think straight. After cross country schooling i rode Poco and then headed home for work. Work was slow and it gave me time to think everything out so i wasn't so distracted. After work i went to Lynne's sweet 16 birthday party. I had a lot of fun actually, her friends were strange and i really didn't get along with them but i had all my work friends with me so i chilled with them. We played pool(i almost won), Air hockey(won once and lost twice), and i spun the thingy for twister. I had a good time, i guess today's lesson is don't underestimate anything..everything has its ups and downs what makes you the better person is not only if you can overcome them but how you overcome them as well. You live and Learn...
Saturday
I slept in a bit because i was dead tired from Lynne's party then i headed off to horseback riding. I rode both Scout and Poco. I only worked on dressage with Scout but clearly we have a lot to work on in jumping as well. We have to work hard in everything we do, nothing will come easy to us..im up for the challenge. Poco and I just did flat and i realized how much of a bitchy horse she can be to other horses. I dealt tho and she was pretty good, shes still out of shape. After I rode me and the girls came back to my house to get ready to go to Canobie. I had a blast at Canobie, i really do love my friends they are so much fun i mean granted sometimes we have our issues with each other we all get over it. We went on the Yankee, the corkscrew, psycho dome, and all that good stuff. Jess hit on a few people there, and i won a pig at the games thing. We liked the car things they are fun to drive, jess and i have our own style of driving. When we got home we all just kind of winded down and chilled, i emailed marina and told her that i wouldn't be coming to the show with her~ big ass mistake. I learned that my friends are my friends and that they will always be there for me and i will always be there for them.
Sunday
I woke up this morning around 9ish and then headed to the barn to drop off Shannon with Jess. I went to go see the horse that Jess is looking at, hes really nice but hes not exactly what i would want for myself. He's good for jess tho, nice and quiet but he will still challenge her in some way. I was getting impatient tho because i wanted to go back and ride, i had planned on riding both Scout and Poco but when i got to the barn i decided to let jess ride Poco and i worked Scout. We worked hard on jumping, i refuse to go to King Oak and get eliminated in jumping. Its not going to happen i won't let it. i get intense when i ride so i wasn't really talking to jess, she takes riding really lightly and im really intense about it. I was kind of upset that she didn't do much with Poco, ive been working hard with her to get her back in shape. I wasn't about to argue tho i don't think either of us were in the mood to. Before i rode marina called and expressed her dissappointment in me not coming with her to the show. I felt really bad, i realized that i had made a bad decision and over commited myself. I made a mistake but i realized that and i know not to do that now. As i was walking Scout out i realized that there wasn't anything more i could ask for in a horse and it hit me. All my questions from friday were answered like that. Its not him..its me. He's not standing between me and my goals, I'm standing between me and my goals. I made a promise then and there that i would no longer slack off and expect things to happen, i would make them happen all myself. A lot happened today that was very important to my conscious..stressful, tiring, to much thinking for me in one day. I have work and then im talking to Jeremy then hitting the hay for school tomorrow. How fun! OH and before i leave i just want to mention that i hate my dad with a passion...drinking is no longer a past time of mine(not that it ever was)..Love Liv