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I'm fucking tired of always being lied to, I dont fucking need it anymore, if someone wants to constantly lie to me and deny it then i dont need them anymore. I'm tired of always getting my hopes up and having them torn down by one person, I dont do this to them, so why should i have to deal with it. Why should it be ok for me to constantly feel shitty, and the person to end up fine and always getting what they want. Certain people expect me to constantly drop EVERYTHING for them, but then would NEVER do the same for me. Its funny how you come to realize some things are just pretend. Some things you thought were real, turn out to be lies. It just depends on how soon you catch them. So then what happens when you find out the only thing you thought was true is only a lie. fuck it.
Time goes by so fast. I feel like my 1st day of jr. high was just yesterday, and then i blinked and now its everyones graduation. I dont think i'm quite there yet, I feel like im still back in 8th grade, I'm not ready for college, I'm not ready to begin my life, I'm not ready for such a huge change, I dont want to grow up. Everyone around me is graduating and getting ready to go away to college, and i'm doing nothing but watching.
Time goes by so fast. I feel like my 1st day of jr. high was just yesterday, and then i blinked and now its everyones graduation. I dont think i'm quite there yet, I feel like im still back in 8th grade, I'm not ready for college, I'm not ready to begin my life, I'm not ready for such a huge change, I dont want to grow up. Everyone around me is graduating and getting ready to go away to college, and i'm doing nothing but watching.