fear. anger. anxiety. distrust. sadness. these are the only things i feel anymore... i literally feel like i'm in a plexi-glass cube in the middle of my own life, wanting desperately to participate and enjoy all that i've been blessed with, but it's impossible. for every fucking good thing that happens, i twist it until it no longer resembles ( Read more... )

chris and i are getting married. finally.

october 3rd, 2009 @ 1:30pm
scenic beach state park
seabeck wa.

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perfect love.

i've found it... in my relationships, my work, everything.

and now, i've found a perfect love with god.

the circle is complete.

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life is swell... chris and i are working on maintaining four years of togetherness, i'm trying to get my self promoted AND we're moving back to vegas in june. fuck, i am EXCITED.

this a bit overdue.
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i miss you mama.

r.i.p.

march 12, 2004 - october 31, 2005

i got a car bitches!!! a 2005 mazda 3 coupe, to be precise.

it's about goddamned time i started driving.

this and that but in black.

also, my baby rocks.


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i guess i'm lucky after all...

i walked all over hell and back today trying to find a job and the very last place i went (The Grill at Valentino) hired me on the spot. it was fucking AWESOME. but wait, the best part is next... it pays $10 an hour plus tips.

i rule.

and, i get to wear a suit. i am SO fancy. hooray for new clothes. we all know ( Read more... )

Get on it Bitches!(MySpace.)

nathan called me from korea.

have you ever gotten a phone call from korea?

no, i didn't think so.

that is so fucking cool!!!

nathan, you ROCK.

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