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seriously, fuck this. im so tired of this. anytime i think something is taking a step in the direction of good, she hears something worse and automatically thinks everything i said was a lie. i cant fucking win. she wont believe me about anything. i finally thought that maybe she would listen to me and maybe understand and believe me because i told her the truth. and then she hears some more shit and disregards everything i said. I CANT FUCKING WIN!!!!!! somebody please help me, tell me what to do. Nobody will just let us deal with this. everybody has their on inputs and such and this is nobody elses business. i dont need anybodys help to tell her the truth. i can tell her myself. why do these bad things keep happening. anytime we take a step forward, we get pushed back by somebody else sayin something. i will tell the truth, i have nothing to hide. all i want is the comfort that someday, her and i will be happy again. whether months, years, or decades, i want the comfort that we will have that chance. but i never will have that comfort becuz she always thinks the worst. if she hears i got naked and ran down the street, shes going to the think i butt fucked some girl i passed while running. oh god. living isnt worth it anymore. its really not........ all i want is for her to fucking believe me.!>!>!>!>>!>!