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[xris24]

ive been meaning to post this for a while, but its so damned complicated ive been avoiding it

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My other Half

[anonymous]

I am the one he writes about. I have always been somewhat diffrent, As Haus will tell you. But how long must I consume myself with learning about the ways of life unknown to sleepers. I have learned too much as it is. I am still the sme person. But I have a new goal and drive that forces me to walk a new path. I want to create a life for myself that leads to a peacefull point of relaxation. I need my rest. I always made sure everything was OK, in order as we decided it. I worried so you didnt have to. But dont forget. When we gathered as friends, I always sat 2 tables away. Never able to let down my guard. Always watching the things that others didnt see. I also was never able to find a true wife. I know that you dont approve of my current persuit. But you must trust me that I have not forgotten my past, or what I once knew. I just want to give another path a chance. and to do so I must let go of yesterday If i truly want tomorrow to come. I am learning a whole new set of tricks. And I am also learning how to be more humble (not an easy thing). Yes we had it all. but I never found what I was looking for. I want you to stop thinking that I (The Catalyst) has died, That is not so .. I just need to see what else there is out there. I am nolonger kept entertained by the secrets I learned, And I cant risk getting bored(dangerous). You see the life I am in now, but you havent looked into the paterns to see where it may lead. I am not weak. But I must learn to not be so Blatent about my knowledge (You know How uncomfortable it makes people) I still keep my mental blade sharp, dont worry there will be more growth. Already I now have a new vehicle, a home of my own. Looking into my computer career again. And once I am stable (without having to rely on making or selling drugs, or having to control people) I will have the chance to go out and return to what it is you see as me. In due time. I have had to enough jail time to know that I need to utalize my mental knowledge to support me, not my mental cunning. I dont want to have my life stop again while I wait to get out of jail. For me to get back into a role that lets me respect myself I had to start at the bottom. And I am working my way up. Faster than ever before. Haus... WE are the 2 sides of a rare coin. Do you realy belive that anything could change that. Some of the ways you have been acting of late trouble me. You have lost faith in my sight. After my mother and dei though I cant blame you. Im not going to ask you to take another look, you shouldnt have to. You should know that one way or another all will be as it should be... "If all else fails I will have an idea". I always told you that I would stand by you even if i thought you were wrong, And there were times I did not agree with your choices. I am asking you to do the same... and if you feel that you cant do that for me ... dont worry ... I will see you know diffrent. That is just another factor for me to work into my design... all bad will be used for fule to promote growth. I am still here... and I am still want us to be a team, but you must understand that I am beginging to feel the wear on my being from never letting myself feel peacefull comfort. I am on my way back to the foutain.... I would like you to meet me there. just as all was set to be.
Your other half
Chris

----One day I will find a way to create a pattern that will have the key to what it is that hold everyone in chains. Everyone will be able to hear the colors that taste like every touch has a smell. Then I will nolonger be forced to know the secret that is in the background.

Re: My other Half

[cinnamongirl505]

Hi....This is Chris's friend Kimber....He has talked so much about you and I am glad to finally hear the story from the other end..Thank you for posting in his Journal...I think that what you are doing is nobel and shouldnt be taken lightly by ANYONE... Keep it up..I hope to hear from you again...
Kimba