yesterday and today and more
yesterday was terrible yet so good. im out of it. im not gonna be all crappy all the time. and im done making fun of hilary duff. and im done with all this suicide crap. im just done. and yesterday i thought was the worst day of my life because of what everyone said to me...but you know what...idc! think what they want! screw them! w/e ill let it slide. but theres one thing that really gets at me. i prayed on sunday night that if anything went wrong on monday then i would never get him back ever again. and yea i got nightmares on monday night. and my friends mom yelled at me. and one of my friends got pissed at me. so i guess ill never get him back. but kay told me not to rest on fate. so i wont. anyways the thing that got me to be happy is when i asked 5 ppl a question. the question was "If i were dying right now and you knew that any moment now i would be gone what would you say to me?"
person number one - i would tell u that your beautiful, and u have alot more to live for, and that your a great person
i barely even know him! ^
person number two - i would say that i love you and i would be prayin for you non stop and i wish that you were very very happy in hevan and that i wish everything would wokr out with cj and i hope that you would at least be happy
hes a guy...guys here dont say i love you ^
person number three - sorry
for everything hes said ^
person number four - whatever shelby..bye
isnt that great?! so much for best friends ^
person number five-know how many ppl love u shelby...ur gonna break so many ppls hearts...shelby i care soo much about u..u know how much u would miss out on life!! remember how we both had our life planned out!?? how we set goals and shit...u will even miss out on me!! hehe and for the next time u go to florida...i love you...and i would pray to god like i was a maniac..i wouldnt stop praying..and i would pray that ur life would be better and that if u do die..that u go to a lot better place than here and that u will have a wonderful time in heaven and will find a guy even better than cj and that someday u would come down to see me as an angel and that all ur dreams would come true in heaven..and i would thank god for such a wonderful friend
yea shes the best and she is one of my best friends ^ i love her so much! she made me cry over that!
so anyways anyone that ive ever said that stupid im killing myself shit to...forget it. i know that a lot of ppl care about me and yea its just so weird do think how many ppl care about me and would show up to my funeral. anyways yea thank you to all the ppl that care and i forgive everyone who says shit and idc if you mean it...w/e i forgive you. im gonna go get my yearbook now and count all the ppl that care about me! <333333333333333333333333333333333333
person number one - i would tell u that your beautiful, and u have alot more to live for, and that your a great person
i barely even know him! ^
person number two - i would say that i love you and i would be prayin for you non stop and i wish that you were very very happy in hevan and that i wish everything would wokr out with cj and i hope that you would at least be happy
hes a guy...guys here dont say i love you ^
person number three - sorry
for everything hes said ^
person number four - whatever shelby..bye
isnt that great?! so much for best friends ^
person number five-know how many ppl love u shelby...ur gonna break so many ppls hearts...shelby i care soo much about u..u know how much u would miss out on life!! remember how we both had our life planned out!?? how we set goals and shit...u will even miss out on me!! hehe and for the next time u go to florida...i love you...and i would pray to god like i was a maniac..i wouldnt stop praying..and i would pray that ur life would be better and that if u do die..that u go to a lot better place than here and that u will have a wonderful time in heaven and will find a guy even better than cj and that someday u would come down to see me as an angel and that all ur dreams would come true in heaven..and i would thank god for such a wonderful friend
yea shes the best and she is one of my best friends ^ i love her so much! she made me cry over that!
so anyways anyone that ive ever said that stupid im killing myself shit to...forget it. i know that a lot of ppl care about me and yea its just so weird do think how many ppl care about me and would show up to my funeral. anyways yea thank you to all the ppl that care and i forgive everyone who says shit and idc if you mean it...w/e i forgive you. im gonna go get my yearbook now and count all the ppl that care about me! <333333333333333333333333333333333333