Once upon a time, I wrote an angry email...
It's not fair that you pull shit on me out of nowhere and leave me abandoned and fucked up. It's not fair that you strung me along and then cut the line when it got hard for you. It's not fair that you magically changed and 6 years no longer mattered. It's especially not fair that I've changed so much of myself already for you and once it got hard for you, you left me. And unless I change again to conform to YOUR ways, it won't work. It's always me going on a ledge for you but you can't make the effort for me. I feel like this is a cop out and you're hiding something again, because this is what you do when you hide things from me. You do something to break us up. You claimed I was the one. The only one. The only one for you. Now that's only true if I change who I am. I'll never be good enough for you. None of this is irrational. I've thought long and hard about it. You are a hypocrite, in life and in faith. You go against what the Bible says without even blinking, then suddenly hold it against others. You've sinned against me more than I ever have to you. I'm a damn good woman and I deserve better than this. I'm a damn good person and I don't deserve to be judged and treated as if I'm a bad person because of the cherry on top. I'm more loving, more compassionate, and far more accepting than you. I've been brought up by the bible and took the good from it and actually applied it to my life. I'm far more loyal, far more giving, and my heart is full of unconditional love and that's what makes this hard because I want to hate you right now and I can't. I still love you, but I'll be damned if I ever allow you to be with me again. You are mean. You are cruel. You are judgemental. You don't live by the good of the bible, you only read and apply what you feel like for the moment.