*disclaimer- Lexi just got rejected by a boy. one not mentioned in this post (you know roro)*
oh my god. so i just stumbled upon the facebook page of a girl i was friends with in high school. and that page in turn took me to her wedding webpage. and herein begins my pathetic tears of jealousy. im pretty sure they started as tears of surprise, and happiness for her-- but they definetly changed their flavor.
i cant explain it any better than, i want a husband, i want a house, i want more babies, i want to wear an apron allllllll day and bake stuff, and i want STABILITY. im already tired of taking care of myself, how sad is that.
and the most ironic thing about all this pathetic-ness is that if i wanted it, i probably could have it. im sure i could get bob or jay to marry me if i wanted. but i don't want them.
i don't know who or what the fuck i want but obviously i should have been born in the 50s when people got married as a business agreement. when people didn't think about the kind of love they see in movies. it doesn't happen like that and how is it fair for them to put that shit out there and make me feel like i do?
arg.
if anyone knows where i can find a husband on the internets you just let me know.
that is a scary sentence.
what have i become!!!!!
i cant explain it any better than, i want a husband, i want a house, i want more babies, i want to wear an apron allllllll day and bake stuff, and i want STABILITY. im already tired of taking care of myself, how sad is that.
and the most ironic thing about all this pathetic-ness is that if i wanted it, i probably could have it. im sure i could get bob or jay to marry me if i wanted. but i don't want them.
i don't know who or what the fuck i want but obviously i should have been born in the 50s when people got married as a business agreement. when people didn't think about the kind of love they see in movies. it doesn't happen like that and how is it fair for them to put that shit out there and make me feel like i do?
arg.
if anyone knows where i can find a husband on the internets you just let me know.
that is a scary sentence.
what have i become!!!!!