so here we go again,...l... fair warning.
hahaha. i love reading my own journal. im such a tool.
so that boy from last post....big dud.
but i think i worked myself up so much that it wouldnt have been good anyway, just because my expectations are much higher than they should be. but i cant help it!
im so afraid that im going to fall back into that big long ugly relationship thing, that i think im setting my sights high. too high probably. but for now. it will work. like i said, i cant do that relationship stuff right now. if i wanted it, i would have it.
right now i want to be "dating." and when i say dating, i mean hanging out with different people and keeping my options open, my life casual. i dont feel the need to be owned by anyone anymore.
so.....
in the same--but other news... another dude has crossed my path. but im not going to get into it this time. because i find it really pathetic to read my journal and see that all i post about are guys.
but i can explain! i have no girlfriends! i need someone to rant too! my closest girlfriend is like, 300 miles away. internet people--- i need you! haha.
so anyway. i may have another "crush" and yes, i will use that term, because yes, people--- I am a little girl in high school. and yes, i am dreamy and pathetic.
but you know what?
i like it.
it keeps my life interesting.
and i need something to make it through the week!
so that boy from last post....big dud.
but i think i worked myself up so much that it wouldnt have been good anyway, just because my expectations are much higher than they should be. but i cant help it!
im so afraid that im going to fall back into that big long ugly relationship thing, that i think im setting my sights high. too high probably. but for now. it will work. like i said, i cant do that relationship stuff right now. if i wanted it, i would have it.
right now i want to be "dating." and when i say dating, i mean hanging out with different people and keeping my options open, my life casual. i dont feel the need to be owned by anyone anymore.
so.....
in the same--but other news... another dude has crossed my path. but im not going to get into it this time. because i find it really pathetic to read my journal and see that all i post about are guys.
but i can explain! i have no girlfriends! i need someone to rant too! my closest girlfriend is like, 300 miles away. internet people--- i need you! haha.
so anyway. i may have another "crush" and yes, i will use that term, because yes, people--- I am a little girl in high school. and yes, i am dreamy and pathetic.
but you know what?
i like it.
it keeps my life interesting.
and i need something to make it through the week!