I should feel bad
On almost a nightly basis I have dreams of murdering Kris's mother. Like beating her to death, disemboweling her, nothing so clean as just shooting her or something, always something involving lost of pain on her end. I should feel bad that i'm having these dreams I think, or at least be a bit freaked out, but I'm not. It actually gives me some form of satisfaction. I know that isn't mentally healthy, but it makes me feel better that I can at least harm her in my dreams since i can't even tell her how much i dislike her in waking life. thats all.