youth and the romance of illusions
ok. so that was a little longer than 2 weeks. I had hoped that my first post after my long absence would be one of substance and an eventual release of the multitude of things that have built up..but that will have to wait. Even though we are back in garrison, things have not eased up like I expected them to. Instead we spend numbing hours catching up with things because we've been gone so long..like getting ready to go back out to sea, and a bunch of other random things that we have to get out of the way before we leave..like for instance a legitimate PFT coming up in less than 30 days..which means I'll have to risk running up on the flight deck some more if I want to improve(or maintain rather) my run time..I'll probly lose some weight too from puking over the side. Because of all these things I haven't been as 'available' as I should be..so i apologize if you are expecting a call..or if I haven't picked up yet, or, yeah.
I should be going home again this weekend. thats a good thing. The very first time I went back for only the weekend, it was much more depressing than it should have been..the second time it was significantly better..even quite memorable..hopefully the trend continues.
wow..so much has happened in the past few weeks..I'm practically bursting at the seams to just spill it all out..and spell it all out for myself so I can see what it actually looks like in black on white, maybe make it seem more real for me..make me believe it was actually me doing all of this, experiencing all of this..maybe then I can see that the storm has passed beyond the horizon, and that only the still, calm waters remain..reflecting the remains of what is left of the innocence and blissful ignorance of my youth..the name of my ship as it kisses the sky going down and under the foaming madness, and i will captain it with all of the ounces of life that is left..
I should be going home again this weekend. thats a good thing. The very first time I went back for only the weekend, it was much more depressing than it should have been..the second time it was significantly better..even quite memorable..hopefully the trend continues.
wow..so much has happened in the past few weeks..I'm practically bursting at the seams to just spill it all out..and spell it all out for myself so I can see what it actually looks like in black on white, maybe make it seem more real for me..make me believe it was actually me doing all of this, experiencing all of this..maybe then I can see that the storm has passed beyond the horizon, and that only the still, calm waters remain..reflecting the remains of what is left of the innocence and blissful ignorance of my youth..the name of my ship as it kisses the sky going down and under the foaming madness, and i will captain it with all of the ounces of life that is left..