May 11, 2010 04:24
ive ate like 4 sugar cookies with pink frosting that you buy in a plastic container from big grocery stores today. for some reason i have a stomach ache but eating seems to help....when i lay down i get anxious. at first im just not relaxed and dont want to be laying there, and then pretty soon im pissed off about nothing presently on my mind and then my stomach hurts. i think i need to wash my blankets. from the piss stains that mysteriously appeared while i was staying with my mom, to me and justin withdrawaling in it and my own nights sweats and being sick, to garrett, tony and jim sleeping in it im pretty sure its reeeaally smelly. maybe thats why i cant relax in it, it smells like shit. not that i can smell it. i cant smell anything really anymore. well no, i can smell, i just dont register that im smelling it. or it could be that i ate a little bit of ramen for like two days and drank beer.... i dunno. ive got heartburn like a motherfucker too. uuuggg i hope im not prego. it should be really easy for me to get an abortion but in my experience getting shit done that should be really easy like that sometimes really isnt. like, im on two forms of insurance, medicare as my primary and medicaid as my secondary, im on social security so i qualify for some kind of free clinic shit im sure, and if i am...pbbblllggg.... its only been like 3 weeks so they could scrape it out or i could take those pill things they have. goddamnit i have this bad feeling that my insurance will cover the scrapey sucky one but not the pill one. im giving it another week and then ill go get the test.