A LiL soMethInG I wanted tO sAy...
Here i am again in my journalism class. Next to Jackie..chillin. Its early release...thank god. Anytime out of school is good...School is driving me craaaazy already..I imagine next year at around this time we probably wont even be going to class anymore..lol..SENiORsSssS truuuu..i cant wait!!! Anyway..we all plan on going to Maylings (yo momma) house. I havent been there yet..im looking forward to botherin her ass...oh and her mom too..since she will be cutting my ugly hair. (the lobster...right mayling& yeileen?).
I saw how I somehow inspired all these FriEnds dedications the past 2 days..its good. Its always good to remind people..family..friends..boyfriend/girlfriend of how special and important they r to u...so they know we appreciate them. One person which I didnt mention much since i was mainly basing it on my friends, was my boyfriend.
Its funny how these four months I havent been the usual Karen. Sometimes u meet people that just change u somehow..for the better that is. If its someone who has had a big influence in me has been John..Maybe he doesnt know this..(he will when he reads this). Those who know how i am can say that i am never constant with relationships. I just dont c myself as gf material....ive come to realize that guys in the past havent really influenced me to be a good girlfriend..and the few who have something just went wrong. Of course i cant say my relationship is perfect..because nothing is..but i know for a fact that how i feel now, i havent before. Yea ive cared for all the guys ive been with, but there was always something missing..always doubts..(remember mayling?) ..why was I never sure? Why was I always scared to fall?...Is it that u know when u can fall for some1 and be safe?...Im not afraid to get hurt..I m afraid of losing myself and needing some1 so bad..which is what being in love is to me..can i say that im a lil late for that?...Im not scared anymore..for that, i thank john. Even if things werent to work out..he has taught me to just go for it..give things a chance...sometimes we dont risk things and try and u live with that doubt. Of course we've had our ups and downs...but im happy i realized that i couldnt give up on something that means so much to me. (u know what im talking about babe). And even if he can get me real upset sometimes..(hhmm no calling!!) I love him for everything he is and for how he makes me feel. Thanks baby for being there as my friend before anything..listenin to all my stories..dilemmas..for being so interested in my school stuff and remembering when i have a quiz or what i have due... Thanks for understandin me when i get bossy/bitchy sometimes...thanks for reading my letters...answering all my phone calls e ven when u r dying of sleep...lol..overall..just thanks for being YOU!...Ive told u before and I tell u again...you make me happy. This is already extremely long and according to my subject i was just writing "a lil something" and look how look this is..lol..I guess when i get into things..and imagine thinkin of how my babe is so great..i would need like a few entries more...So if i left something out... let me sum it up with 3 words...I LOVE U...
* Baby whats in 21 days??..lol =0) *
I saw how I somehow inspired all these FriEnds dedications the past 2 days..its good. Its always good to remind people..family..friends..boyfriend/girlfriend of how special and important they r to u...so they know we appreciate them. One person which I didnt mention much since i was mainly basing it on my friends, was my boyfriend.
Its funny how these four months I havent been the usual Karen. Sometimes u meet people that just change u somehow..for the better that is. If its someone who has had a big influence in me has been John..Maybe he doesnt know this..(he will when he reads this). Those who know how i am can say that i am never constant with relationships. I just dont c myself as gf material....ive come to realize that guys in the past havent really influenced me to be a good girlfriend..and the few who have something just went wrong. Of course i cant say my relationship is perfect..because nothing is..but i know for a fact that how i feel now, i havent before. Yea ive cared for all the guys ive been with, but there was always something missing..always doubts..(remember mayling?) ..why was I never sure? Why was I always scared to fall?...Is it that u know when u can fall for some1 and be safe?...Im not afraid to get hurt..I m afraid of losing myself and needing some1 so bad..which is what being in love is to me..can i say that im a lil late for that?...Im not scared anymore..for that, i thank john. Even if things werent to work out..he has taught me to just go for it..give things a chance...sometimes we dont risk things and try and u live with that doubt. Of course we've had our ups and downs...but im happy i realized that i couldnt give up on something that means so much to me. (u know what im talking about babe). And even if he can get me real upset sometimes..(hhmm no calling!!) I love him for everything he is and for how he makes me feel. Thanks baby for being there as my friend before anything..listenin to all my stories..dilemmas..for being so interested in my school stuff and remembering when i have a quiz or what i have due... Thanks for understandin me when i get bossy/bitchy sometimes...thanks for reading my letters...answering all my phone calls e ven when u r dying of sleep...lol..overall..just thanks for being YOU!...Ive told u before and I tell u again...you make me happy. This is already extremely long and according to my subject i was just writing "a lil something" and look how look this is..lol..I guess when i get into things..and imagine thinkin of how my babe is so great..i would need like a few entries more...So if i left something out... let me sum it up with 3 words...I LOVE U...
* Baby whats in 21 days??..lol =0) *