Maybe not a good title...
Ok... maybe lost soul isn't a good way to put the way I am feeling but I don't know how to describe it. I mean life meant so much more to me 2 years ago than it does now. Like how pretty the sky is... how dancing with a friend can let you experience feelings you've never felt... laying in the grass sinking into the ground and feeling like your apart of something much greater than any of us really know. Talking about spiritual beings, God! Or maybe something different... Any time anyone had a problem they came to me. I always had advice or knew what to do. I was the "go to guy". I took chances. Some of them were not so good, but I made it through them. Some things I did I'm not so proud of but I had the balls to do it and I never questioned why I did them. I just lived life to the fullest like there wasn't going to be a tomorrow. I loved feeling alive. Now I don't have that anymore and all of this is combined all together and I don't know what to do or how to get it back but I think if I start writing again... It may come back to me and we will see where that takes me with everything. But half of what I said don't make sense. I just have so many ideas and thoughts... You were right Cinnamon... Here comes the rain of thoughts... I love ya and thank you for always being there. I always got your back. U MY CAT!!!! ANDS MY PRINCESS!!!