Lost soul
I think for some odd reason I have lost touch with my inner self. I used to be really deep. I guess I just got wrapped up in growing up; although I don't know why considering I am only 19. But being 19, married, taking caring care of my responsibilities is a tough thing to do. Not to mention the whole military lifestyle. I guess the best way to explain it is... You know how a child has it's innocence? Then someone tells them that Santa isn't real or the tooth fairy is your mom! Well that's kinda what "life" did to me. I got so wound up in everything, life kinda took that from me. I lost sight of what I use to love and enjoy. Just chillin, relaxing, but keeping busy and surrounding myself with "good vibes". Not so much that nothing mattered but not getting so irritated at little things or aggravated at something petty. I use to write and talk to my boys/girl to get everything out and bullshit about everyday life. I don't write anymore and my boys are doing the college thing and working. My cat back home is doing the same as them two. But I talked to my other cat in Tampa last night and I think I have decided to start writing again. I need to get that soul or inner self,whatever you want to call it back. So here goes the next chapter for my JOURNAL! Military life and being married.