Spend all your time waiting, for that second change, for a break that would make it okay
Today Is dec.9 and very very soon I will be coming home. I am not going to put the exact date because Jessica might read this and she doesnt want to know when I am coming home. ( Jess if you are reading this I was just about to put the days left but then I was like...noooo) So I am done my first semester of university at Carleton, just the exams left to do. The exams are such a pain in the ass. So you study all day so by the end of the day you are going crazy and start to get really hyper becuase you sat at a desk all day but at the same time you are really grumpy because your pissed you have to study so much. Haha...oh dilemas. Going home should be really good. Ric's coming to the airport..yippee.. Its been so long since I've been home. This is like my home now, even though Chilliwack has always been. I dont know what will happen when I come back. Because I have moved away from friends a lot, and I know how wierd it is coming back to them. Yet I have never left a boyfriend.... I might work at the BP for a few shifts when I get home just for some extra cash. Honestly I dont know how I spent as much as I did.
Anyways on to the living situation. Living in dorms is nothing like the movies. Where its party 24/7. I mean sure there are guys who smoke up everyday in there rooms and make the hallway smell like weed and use the vacum to suck up the air and then when we try and use the vacum our whole room ends up smelling like weed. thats besides the point. As for the girls I live with, there is six of us and dam does it get hard sometimes. There is one girl that annoys the shit out of everyone 24/7 because she is like anal repulsive with no indoor voice. Then there is Hollie, Shaylene, and Gaby. Hollie doesnt live in our suite but she always comes in here. Those three girls like to disclude everyone and get pretty snobby most of the time. I cant stand them most of the time because they are so full of drama...no matter what the situation everything has to be about them. Then there is Jennah. She is probably my closest friend here. We get along pretty well, we are both pretty outgoing and laidback..dont really care about too much haha. We have our good times like "miss Stubbs" and " the war arm movement" and "once again your gay" and such and so on. My room mate is hardest to get along with. She is always grumpy and thinks she has a reason to be. Whether her head hurts or she had hockey or didnt sleep enough ...its always a reason to be a complete grumpy bitch. Yet we are all in the same boat, she seems to think she is so much differnent or worse off. Its like everyone here...everyone thinks there worse off then the other...when really we are almost all the same. All here, most coming alone to meet and live with new poeple. being away from family and friends and in my case a boyfriend.
On another note, I cant wait to come home and see my baby! I miss him soooo much. We have probably had the worst possible time in our relationship these past 3 and a half months. Hopefully we will pull through. this is the longest time we have gone without seeing each other. Latly he has been going on webcam and it is sooo good to just see him..even if hes just sitting there typing back to me. We have both made mistakes these past 3 months and its hard to get past them but i think we will. I cant wait to take walks and go to movies and go out for dinner and sleep in the same bed as him all over again. Well I better study some more...i have my first final tonight at 7pm. Should be fun times. Love Smash