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I dont believe in the assertion of ones spiritual beliefs
Metaphysics has a way of fucking shit up, and people get into an argument over something they have had only a cursory experience of, and they assume its fundamental truth. However, I notice myself posting in this journal less and less these days, so I figure that for the few people who even give this a read, I'd like for you to know who and what I am.
I believe in magic. I believe that there is something called an observer, which could be classified as the soul, which exists despite the fact your physical form decays, dies and changes every 7 years. If this is the soul, I really dont know. It could be a logical fallacy, but fuck logic. I hate that shit. The fact is, I have this belief that there is something that Adam Swaller represents that isnt necessitated by a body, though a body was instrumental in its creation. Its what people mourn when you die, or disappear. I believe that this spark is unlimited in its potential, and if you are intuitive enough, you can channel it and use it to create things around you. Humanity fell from grace and ignorance into a terrible state so that we could practice our intent as creators because we are just an aspect of God. I believe in a monist approach, at my core. There is the one and then the permutations of the one, which are really just him. Him is genderless. Fuck you people who think I'm sexist. I have drawn these beliefs off of various feelings on what seems to be right in this life. Albeit these beliefs will change in time. So, therefore, how can I call them beliefs when I know that they will change and fall off or become something new in time? I had beliefs when I was a senior in high school, even joined a religion. I fell out of grace with that, and I thought I was doomed. But I had experiences of the most intense spiritual kind after that. I have this feeling in my chest that guides me, and I'm slowly learning what it means. But these meanings are things I cannot express to you because I still have no clue. So, the statement that I believe is just a temporary thing and doesnt indicate what I truly know, but its a good enough for now. It leads me to say that I do not know anything, and I will not know anything in the future. If you put me in a situation, I can just react. So, my formulation on spiritual metaphysics is that you will never reach consensus until the end of the apocalypse. The apocalypse will be a time of death and horrible, horrible things. I do not think that it will be demons manifest to enslave humanity or something like that. It will be the worst of humanity against the worst of humanity, and only when we have experienced much terror and destruction, will it end. The apocalypse is meant to be a revelation to humanity, and I think it will be a revelation of who and what we are. These beliefs are nothing though, just pointless assertions I can make so I dont think you should concern yourself with them. The following are the only truths that I know, and I know them because some I have created as a way to cope with this world, and others because I believe them.
The first truth I know is that even if the world is a fucked up place, that doesnt give you a warrant to be fucked up. The second truth I know is that you will fuck up, but that doesnt give you a warrant to be fucked up or stop trying. Third truth is that metaphysics are the cause of much strife, because no-two humans will genuinely agree on spiritual beliefs of what is now and what comes later. People who say they believe that Christ died for our sins and we will have a place in heaven all have a different visualization of that. They agree on the initial premise but do not agree on the conclusion. Fair enough. Arguing over spiritual beliefs is good though, as witnessed by Judaism and Buddhism. Its a ritualistic practice of purification, so argue, but dont grow angry or wrathful. The biblical sins are sins, because they represent the excess that a human will fall into and then loose sight of themselves from. You are not capable of judgement, and will never be so long as you remain who you are. Therefore, stop judging yourself and others and just accept them. This isnt to say disregard preferences, but do not pass a judgement for it is not in your scope of abilities to do so. This last one naturally ignores practical, social considerations such as jobs, firing, etc. But those are just man-made constructions of imagination made manifest, so you're not really engaging in true judgement. You are not responsible for the actions of others, so therefore, do not do wrong to them even if they do wrong to you. All you can be responsible for is yourself, and what you choose to do. You move yourself and no one else moves you. Therefore, do not concern yourself with others and only concern yourself with what you do.
The only virtue I would extol upon you, if I can do so without sounding like a hypocrite, is that you should act in a "good" fashion (you figure out what good is, but, I can assure you its rarely a self-interested fucking of other people over). If this world is cold, then you have to be warm.
Personally, I will try to go down this path alot longer. I think there is wonder here, and the ability for me to shape events around me. Im fucking weird, and this sounds crazy. Its not unique to myself, and I hope to find others like me, and I have. But theyre exactly like me, which means we are all blind. That being said, the experience and love for the encounters and what occurs is what matters. I will continue to be skeptical, and I assure you, I do not state these beliefs out of a moment or two of an coincidental instance happening. Anyways, I'll probably forget this livejournal soon enough. Theres a weight in my chest, as if it was some unspoken word that would finish this statement. Poi? haha. Im stupid. I really do wish the best for you all.
Metaphysics has a way of fucking shit up, and people get into an argument over something they have had only a cursory experience of, and they assume its fundamental truth. However, I notice myself posting in this journal less and less these days, so I figure that for the few people who even give this a read, I'd like for you to know who and what I am.
I believe in magic. I believe that there is something called an observer, which could be classified as the soul, which exists despite the fact your physical form decays, dies and changes every 7 years. If this is the soul, I really dont know. It could be a logical fallacy, but fuck logic. I hate that shit. The fact is, I have this belief that there is something that Adam Swaller represents that isnt necessitated by a body, though a body was instrumental in its creation. Its what people mourn when you die, or disappear. I believe that this spark is unlimited in its potential, and if you are intuitive enough, you can channel it and use it to create things around you. Humanity fell from grace and ignorance into a terrible state so that we could practice our intent as creators because we are just an aspect of God. I believe in a monist approach, at my core. There is the one and then the permutations of the one, which are really just him. Him is genderless. Fuck you people who think I'm sexist. I have drawn these beliefs off of various feelings on what seems to be right in this life. Albeit these beliefs will change in time. So, therefore, how can I call them beliefs when I know that they will change and fall off or become something new in time? I had beliefs when I was a senior in high school, even joined a religion. I fell out of grace with that, and I thought I was doomed. But I had experiences of the most intense spiritual kind after that. I have this feeling in my chest that guides me, and I'm slowly learning what it means. But these meanings are things I cannot express to you because I still have no clue. So, the statement that I believe is just a temporary thing and doesnt indicate what I truly know, but its a good enough for now. It leads me to say that I do not know anything, and I will not know anything in the future. If you put me in a situation, I can just react. So, my formulation on spiritual metaphysics is that you will never reach consensus until the end of the apocalypse. The apocalypse will be a time of death and horrible, horrible things. I do not think that it will be demons manifest to enslave humanity or something like that. It will be the worst of humanity against the worst of humanity, and only when we have experienced much terror and destruction, will it end. The apocalypse is meant to be a revelation to humanity, and I think it will be a revelation of who and what we are. These beliefs are nothing though, just pointless assertions I can make so I dont think you should concern yourself with them. The following are the only truths that I know, and I know them because some I have created as a way to cope with this world, and others because I believe them.
The first truth I know is that even if the world is a fucked up place, that doesnt give you a warrant to be fucked up. The second truth I know is that you will fuck up, but that doesnt give you a warrant to be fucked up or stop trying. Third truth is that metaphysics are the cause of much strife, because no-two humans will genuinely agree on spiritual beliefs of what is now and what comes later. People who say they believe that Christ died for our sins and we will have a place in heaven all have a different visualization of that. They agree on the initial premise but do not agree on the conclusion. Fair enough. Arguing over spiritual beliefs is good though, as witnessed by Judaism and Buddhism. Its a ritualistic practice of purification, so argue, but dont grow angry or wrathful. The biblical sins are sins, because they represent the excess that a human will fall into and then loose sight of themselves from. You are not capable of judgement, and will never be so long as you remain who you are. Therefore, stop judging yourself and others and just accept them. This isnt to say disregard preferences, but do not pass a judgement for it is not in your scope of abilities to do so. This last one naturally ignores practical, social considerations such as jobs, firing, etc. But those are just man-made constructions of imagination made manifest, so you're not really engaging in true judgement. You are not responsible for the actions of others, so therefore, do not do wrong to them even if they do wrong to you. All you can be responsible for is yourself, and what you choose to do. You move yourself and no one else moves you. Therefore, do not concern yourself with others and only concern yourself with what you do.
The only virtue I would extol upon you, if I can do so without sounding like a hypocrite, is that you should act in a "good" fashion (you figure out what good is, but, I can assure you its rarely a self-interested fucking of other people over). If this world is cold, then you have to be warm.
Personally, I will try to go down this path alot longer. I think there is wonder here, and the ability for me to shape events around me. Im fucking weird, and this sounds crazy. Its not unique to myself, and I hope to find others like me, and I have. But theyre exactly like me, which means we are all blind. That being said, the experience and love for the encounters and what occurs is what matters. I will continue to be skeptical, and I assure you, I do not state these beliefs out of a moment or two of an coincidental instance happening. Anyways, I'll probably forget this livejournal soon enough. Theres a weight in my chest, as if it was some unspoken word that would finish this statement. Poi? haha. Im stupid. I really do wish the best for you all.