Figuring out...
I realized something today...i DONT kno WHY i love Rooster..
Hannah: what makes u love her?
UBWantinDisQT: i wish i knew
UBWantinDisQT: then i would block it out
Hannah: her appearence
UBWantinDisQT: no
Hannah: smart?
UBWantinDisQT: NO!
UBWantinDisQT: lol
Hannah: haha
Hannah: funny?
UBWantinDisQT: she is funny
Hannah: shes not that funny
UBWantinDisQT: yes she is
UBWantinDisQT: lol
UBWantinDisQT: to me she is
Hannah: lol
UBWantinDisQT: u dont think shes funny?
Hannah: sometimes she can be
UBWantinDisQT: i think shes hilarious
Hannah: i odnt ll
UBWantinDisQT: cept when shes makin fun of me
UBWantinDisQT: =\
Hannah: lol
Hannah: r u kidding me
Hannah: that was the only part i thought that was funny!
So..If anywun wuld lyk to enlighten me as to why i love her...
O! Lastnight she todl me she din wanna talk to me no more for a while cuz i hurt her..n i honestly dont know how i will be able to deal with that...not knowin how she is...fuck! She prolly doesnt even miss me ehy? naw, i doubt she does...I sure do miss her tho.=\
Lastnight after she told me we shouldnt talk...i called her 5 tyms later on...cuz i needed to hear her voice even if she would of bitched me out =\ but no answer..i knocked out by starin at the shadow things in my room made with my night light...yes i have a night light im very...paranoid? lol but yea...umm i rly dont want to lay down tonight, i have a feeling its oging to be pure torture as lastnight was....i just want it to be a dream...i wanna awake now.=\ AH!Fuk...I feel lyk im Mirna ::screams:: ah! i must not...i will from now on not call her...or IM her..(well thats cuz she doesnt want me to)lol but still.It takes alot of willpower....n i will do it, no matter how many bags i have under my eyes from lack of sleep...i will not call her...tho i will pray that she will call me...::laughs sarcastically:: ill die before that happens.
What Happened Today:
Roland came over:) i had madd fun...i missed him alot.We watched The Others Freaky movie..specially the fucking Piano part erg...after that we watched Thats so Raven;) n Sister Act 2....GREAT movie..the nun pokes herself in the eye.Fucking HILARIOUS! heh
Then after sister act..i turned off the TV n put on my Nirvana Cd n we talked for hours about lyf n our minds.He sed that Rooster could shoot me n i would apologize..which i found depressing as fuck, cuz i prolly would.
Gina came n sed something even MORE depressing...lol she sed "i told u dump her a while ago...i told u she din love u as much u did her" AH! but w.e by the end of the night not even...an hour later it was all forgotten...i got to be with roland alone...we played foot games lol heh n umm..he gave me a rock in a shape of a heart which was rly sweet:)
Oh..I talked to Bug...;) (annie) we got shyt down or w.e as to wat happened at the fair...fucking torment n shyt. w.e ummm we're down.
I talked to Rachel!!!! SHE FOUND MY TUPAC JACKET! I love you Rae!!!=) MUAHZ!!
n now im sittin here..Roland left a couple of minutes ago...im listenin to Reggeaton cuz it somehow makes me happy? or at least helps me pretend i am...
CoMmEnT iF yOu WilL
Hannah: what makes u love her?
UBWantinDisQT: i wish i knew
UBWantinDisQT: then i would block it out
Hannah: her appearence
UBWantinDisQT: no
Hannah: smart?
UBWantinDisQT: NO!
UBWantinDisQT: lol
Hannah: haha
Hannah: funny?
UBWantinDisQT: she is funny
Hannah: shes not that funny
UBWantinDisQT: yes she is
UBWantinDisQT: lol
UBWantinDisQT: to me she is
Hannah: lol
UBWantinDisQT: u dont think shes funny?
Hannah: sometimes she can be
UBWantinDisQT: i think shes hilarious
Hannah: i odnt ll
UBWantinDisQT: cept when shes makin fun of me
UBWantinDisQT: =\
Hannah: lol
Hannah: r u kidding me
Hannah: that was the only part i thought that was funny!
So..If anywun wuld lyk to enlighten me as to why i love her...
O! Lastnight she todl me she din wanna talk to me no more for a while cuz i hurt her..n i honestly dont know how i will be able to deal with that...not knowin how she is...fuck! She prolly doesnt even miss me ehy? naw, i doubt she does...I sure do miss her tho.=\
Lastnight after she told me we shouldnt talk...i called her 5 tyms later on...cuz i needed to hear her voice even if she would of bitched me out =\ but no answer..i knocked out by starin at the shadow things in my room made with my night light...yes i have a night light im very...paranoid? lol but yea...umm i rly dont want to lay down tonight, i have a feeling its oging to be pure torture as lastnight was....i just want it to be a dream...i wanna awake now.=\ AH!Fuk...I feel lyk im Mirna ::screams:: ah! i must not...i will from now on not call her...or IM her..(well thats cuz she doesnt want me to)lol but still.It takes alot of willpower....n i will do it, no matter how many bags i have under my eyes from lack of sleep...i will not call her...tho i will pray that she will call me...::laughs sarcastically:: ill die before that happens.
What Happened Today:
Roland came over:) i had madd fun...i missed him alot.We watched The Others Freaky movie..specially the fucking Piano part erg...after that we watched Thats so Raven;) n Sister Act 2....GREAT movie..the nun pokes herself in the eye.Fucking HILARIOUS! heh
Then after sister act..i turned off the TV n put on my Nirvana Cd n we talked for hours about lyf n our minds.He sed that Rooster could shoot me n i would apologize..which i found depressing as fuck, cuz i prolly would.
Gina came n sed something even MORE depressing...lol she sed "i told u dump her a while ago...i told u she din love u as much u did her" AH! but w.e by the end of the night not even...an hour later it was all forgotten...i got to be with roland alone...we played foot games lol heh n umm..he gave me a rock in a shape of a heart which was rly sweet:)
Oh..I talked to Bug...;) (annie) we got shyt down or w.e as to wat happened at the fair...fucking torment n shyt. w.e ummm we're down.
I talked to Rachel!!!! SHE FOUND MY TUPAC JACKET! I love you Rae!!!=) MUAHZ!!
n now im sittin here..Roland left a couple of minutes ago...im listenin to Reggeaton cuz it somehow makes me happy? or at least helps me pretend i am...
CoMmEnT iF yOu WilL