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Ive been in a w.e mood ever since wed. Lyk i stated b4 ma grl n i broke up...nothing rly to be happy bout.I miss her lyk hell dawg, no lie...but dam we talked n she dont want me to stay stuck on her so im tryin to not be on her fukin cock all da tym...tho at tyms i find myself dialin her number n then just hangin up...i left her 20 messages lastnight! 2-0 MESSAGES! till her fukin machine told me she wasnt allowed to recieve anymore msgs...=\ or else knowin me...i woulda kept going erg....she told me she din want to get bak wit me cuz we had tried too many tyms n shyt...w0w n tho i promise maself i wouldnt crawl bak to her...i ended up doin it.Shyt just dont feel da same w.o her in ma lyf as ma grl...i feel uncanny and hollow...nothing i can do bout it,cept suck it up n move on...daz wa she wants me to do so i aint rly got a choice.
Lastnyt we talked till 3 am...bout wa had occurred n shyt, i aint gunna lie i feel guilty for most of what happened n shyt...=\ iono i went crazy...i was rly fucking heated and in the middle of my rage i just broke up with her,w.o takin da tyme to analyze da situation as to if id be da ryt thing to do.Tho after talkin to her i realized dat it was the best thing to do...i mean she told me she wasnt happy wit me ::looks around n hides face:: it seems to me that im literally incompetent when it comes to making someone i love happy. erg! SO im happy that she has been freed from my.."chains" ish? im not too sure as to how to put it...now shes happy n tho she dint say her lyf was better without me in it...i kno it is.
Whats funny is that she doesnt believe me when i tell her i love her she says she doesnt believe it...=) yey! shows how fucking depressing i am...w.e lyk i sed cant do noin about it....HA! she thinks im too violent..=) which is partially true..i wuldnt ever hit her or anything like that. I hurt myself when im mad, but daz cuz i have a very explosive personality...i dont plan on doing it either...when any human bein walks into a dark room the first thing u do is turn on the light...well i get to a state where im angered i will punch...and that is exactly what i did wed. n it made her look at me different. so w.e I guess we werent ment to be...=\
Ive been in a w.e mood ever since wed. Lyk i stated b4 ma grl n i broke up...nothing rly to be happy bout.I miss her lyk hell dawg, no lie...but dam we talked n she dont want me to stay stuck on her so im tryin to not be on her fukin cock all da tym...tho at tyms i find myself dialin her number n then just hangin up...i left her 20 messages lastnight! 2-0 MESSAGES! till her fukin machine told me she wasnt allowed to recieve anymore msgs...=\ or else knowin me...i woulda kept going erg....she told me she din want to get bak wit me cuz we had tried too many tyms n shyt...w0w n tho i promise maself i wouldnt crawl bak to her...i ended up doin it.Shyt just dont feel da same w.o her in ma lyf as ma grl...i feel uncanny and hollow...nothing i can do bout it,cept suck it up n move on...daz wa she wants me to do so i aint rly got a choice.
Lastnyt we talked till 3 am...bout wa had occurred n shyt, i aint gunna lie i feel guilty for most of what happened n shyt...=\ iono i went crazy...i was rly fucking heated and in the middle of my rage i just broke up with her,w.o takin da tyme to analyze da situation as to if id be da ryt thing to do.Tho after talkin to her i realized dat it was the best thing to do...i mean she told me she wasnt happy wit me ::looks around n hides face:: it seems to me that im literally incompetent when it comes to making someone i love happy. erg! SO im happy that she has been freed from my.."chains" ish? im not too sure as to how to put it...now shes happy n tho she dint say her lyf was better without me in it...i kno it is.
Whats funny is that she doesnt believe me when i tell her i love her she says she doesnt believe it...=) yey! shows how fucking depressing i am...w.e lyk i sed cant do noin about it....HA! she thinks im too violent..=) which is partially true..i wuldnt ever hit her or anything like that. I hurt myself when im mad, but daz cuz i have a very explosive personality...i dont plan on doing it either...when any human bein walks into a dark room the first thing u do is turn on the light...well i get to a state where im angered i will punch...and that is exactly what i did wed. n it made her look at me different. so w.e I guess we werent ment to be...=\