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Addicted to the feeling of feeling empty
Emotionally or physically doesn’t matter
nothing can fill me
but i wanna feel something
and i giggle at my own jokes for far to long
laying on the floor
enjoying the feeling of feeling something
even when it’s sorta forced
because it’s never gonna last
and i know that
but for now it’s nice to pretend
for a while
until the feeling ends
all of a sudden the happiness stops
sitting in my room
the minutes pass i don’t notice
not zoned out but my attention is far away
small smiles feel attainable
but they don’t feel right
my head feels fuzzy as the world doesn’t seem real
head tilted because it can’t stay up but i’ll be over it in a few days