Im just learning how to smile
So...
Latly has actually been pretty good
Despite the whole Clay turning out to be a total ass thing
Other than that ive been pretty good. Im actually starting to become good at this whole "blancing" my friends act.
See...some of my friends dont really like one another or sometimes they dont want to talk to one another or ones down and doesnt really want to talk to anyone or our sceduals conflit or something of that sort, and so ive been freaking out because i spend more time with others, and i dont mean to, its just im talking with them and so my other friend doesnt want to talk to me because they dont like so-n-so or the friend im with doesnt want to talk to anyone else because they're down or something of that sort.
And its really hard. I dont know if people realize what they do to the other people when they have a conflict like that, but it really tears me apart because i dont favor anyone over anyone else (well...other than like obviously Har and Mac and Stacie and Amanda over most of my other friends)But Stacie and Mac fight a lot and so Mac wont do things with us when Stacies going to be there and then stacie acts like she wants space, but then complains that she feels like a 3rd wheel, and Har wanted to be with Daniel the other day at the park, and i felt like i was spending more time with Mac, but i was just trying to let her be with Daniel because she wont be able to see him for a bit and yeah....
But ive become pretty good at it now i think. No one really seems mad or left out with me, and i even squeeze in me and Meggie time and such....so yeah...im pretty happy about that, because i love my friends so much and i dont want them to think that i dont, because i do with all my heart.
But yeah....other than that....uhhh...nothing else has really been going on....
I started a real journal that im going to just put whatever comes to my head whenever with drawings, doodles, song lyrics, whatever. Stacie wrote me a note in it today. It may become part of my new Zine, but i dont know.
Schools been pretty good too. I think im doing well enough in my classes and everything will (hopefully) be passing by report cards.
Im getting my things together to mail Tom and Mer
I cant wait until Spring Break, that is if i can actually go and see Tom. I really want to. I love that kid, hes awesome.
But yeah...other than that....uhh....lifes just been life....
im off to bed.
Latly has actually been pretty good
Despite the whole Clay turning out to be a total ass thing
Other than that ive been pretty good. Im actually starting to become good at this whole "blancing" my friends act.
See...some of my friends dont really like one another or sometimes they dont want to talk to one another or ones down and doesnt really want to talk to anyone or our sceduals conflit or something of that sort, and so ive been freaking out because i spend more time with others, and i dont mean to, its just im talking with them and so my other friend doesnt want to talk to me because they dont like so-n-so or the friend im with doesnt want to talk to anyone else because they're down or something of that sort.
And its really hard. I dont know if people realize what they do to the other people when they have a conflict like that, but it really tears me apart because i dont favor anyone over anyone else (well...other than like obviously Har and Mac and Stacie and Amanda over most of my other friends)But Stacie and Mac fight a lot and so Mac wont do things with us when Stacies going to be there and then stacie acts like she wants space, but then complains that she feels like a 3rd wheel, and Har wanted to be with Daniel the other day at the park, and i felt like i was spending more time with Mac, but i was just trying to let her be with Daniel because she wont be able to see him for a bit and yeah....
But ive become pretty good at it now i think. No one really seems mad or left out with me, and i even squeeze in me and Meggie time and such....so yeah...im pretty happy about that, because i love my friends so much and i dont want them to think that i dont, because i do with all my heart.
But yeah....other than that....uhhh...nothing else has really been going on....
I started a real journal that im going to just put whatever comes to my head whenever with drawings, doodles, song lyrics, whatever. Stacie wrote me a note in it today. It may become part of my new Zine, but i dont know.
Schools been pretty good too. I think im doing well enough in my classes and everything will (hopefully) be passing by report cards.
Im getting my things together to mail Tom and Mer
I cant wait until Spring Break, that is if i can actually go and see Tom. I really want to. I love that kid, hes awesome.
But yeah...other than that....uhh....lifes just been life....
im off to bed.