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Wow guys.
i just thought about a lot. i feel like an idiot. a bitch. selfish. just what i dont want to be. but i turn out being anyways. im embarrassed in alot of ways and i dont know how to explain the way i feel. i feel like i lost a battle that i wish could have never started but it did because i am just...uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dont know anymore guys. all i can say is im sorry. and that probably wont do anything. but i was rude and i had no right to do what i did. i hate me right now. and life sucks. i just wish that i wasnt always the person who is in the middle, then always gets to be stuck in some situation no matter what. thats the story of my life. im not the way i want to be. but what i want, i wont be. so what does that leave for me? i have no clue. life - middle school is hitting me hard and definately affecting me. i just wish i could stop screwing stuff up and drama could be lowered down a level because god knows how much drama goes on at our school from stupid shit. im tired. im gunna go do homework. sick of me.
im sorry- you know who you are.
i just thought about a lot. i feel like an idiot. a bitch. selfish. just what i dont want to be. but i turn out being anyways. im embarrassed in alot of ways and i dont know how to explain the way i feel. i feel like i lost a battle that i wish could have never started but it did because i am just...uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dont know anymore guys. all i can say is im sorry. and that probably wont do anything. but i was rude and i had no right to do what i did. i hate me right now. and life sucks. i just wish that i wasnt always the person who is in the middle, then always gets to be stuck in some situation no matter what. thats the story of my life. im not the way i want to be. but what i want, i wont be. so what does that leave for me? i have no clue. life - middle school is hitting me hard and definately affecting me. i just wish i could stop screwing stuff up and drama could be lowered down a level because god knows how much drama goes on at our school from stupid shit. im tired. im gunna go do homework. sick of me.
im sorry- you know who you are.