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Yesterday would of made Josh and I one whole year.....that's of course if he hadn't of got killed on April 20, 2005. I think of him non-stop as it is, but yesterday was horrible. I feel so bad everyday for him not being here. I always think it's my fault. I should of told him to be with me that night instead of his friends and none of this would ever of happend. I can't change what is now. But it's killing me. I wish I could. I loved that boy so much and still do. He will always have a huge piece of my heart. FOREVER! :-(
Anyway.....I feel like crap right now. My stomach is killing me.
We went out to eat earlier at this steak house here in town. It sucked. The food was gorss I thought. Then we went to Wal-Mart. I got Cade stuff she needed like diapers, wipes and some new socks. And of course being the nice mommy I am a new toy like always. Haha she is so spoiled. But ahh she's worth it!
I have to go get blood taken tomrrow and lab work done at the hospital. I have RH Negative blood and it makes me sick all the time causes it fights my immune system. So they have to do work on me every so often to see how it's acting to make sure I don't get sick. I have getting blood drawn! So that's gonna be no fun. My blood type is all fucked up. Like they told me that I think 5 out of every 5000 people have my blood type..so if I ever needed a blood transfusion or anything like that I'd be fucked cause it would be harder to find blood for me.
Well, I guess that's all I have to say for tonight. See ya.