Odd Dream
I had a dream about Christine.
But strangely she wasn't in it.
I was in galleria mall but it was weird, everything was way bigger and some thing were changed but in general things were still the same.
I've had dreams in the same area before, its weird as in, something about the mall is completely different but at the same time...its very much the same.
Well anyways, it started off with her brother Chris running towards me and he hugged me and I'm not sure if he was crying or upset.
But something wasn't right, and he fell to the ground, still not sure if he was crying but i knelt and hugged him and said "its out of my hands, i don't have any push or pull in the situation." I then looked up and his parents were there smiling at me (i always loved how happy they were when i was around) but i then said "everything will be right, i promise, ill do everything i can" I then stood up and hugged her parents and talked with them. I'm not sure what we talked about but i was very, eh I'm not sure. Its hard to remember but i do know that i was thanking them for everything they did and explain how much i missed their hospitality as well as there all around presences. I was explaining to them how much i really missed their daughter and how i was a fool for not trying to get her back and such. What even weirder is i wanted to ask them some things as well as ask about Connor, and just ask if they liked him better than me and just idk find out how they feel about it and if they missed me. I know I wanted to know because i felt myself outside of the dream trying to figure out how to ask it without coming across like a psycho. I never asked what i wanted to, we just talked about things i cant remember, and it feel great to be with her family again but she wasn't there and their was this empty feeling, but at the same time it was okay. I didn't want the dream to end, i really didn't. But it ended and before it did, we all said goodbye and things of that nature. I really didn't want it to end.
I cant really hide it, i do miss Christine.
I miss her being in my life.
But friends and family say she isn't worth it and at this point.
I must agree with them.
She has said things and done things that really hurt me.
I'm no longer going out of my way to patch things up anymore.
If all on her but the problem is, i know who she is.
Shes too scared and stubborn to actually talk to me or see how im doing.
So i guess ill just sit around.
But strangely she wasn't in it.
I was in galleria mall but it was weird, everything was way bigger and some thing were changed but in general things were still the same.
I've had dreams in the same area before, its weird as in, something about the mall is completely different but at the same time...its very much the same.
Well anyways, it started off with her brother Chris running towards me and he hugged me and I'm not sure if he was crying or upset.
But something wasn't right, and he fell to the ground, still not sure if he was crying but i knelt and hugged him and said "its out of my hands, i don't have any push or pull in the situation." I then looked up and his parents were there smiling at me (i always loved how happy they were when i was around) but i then said "everything will be right, i promise, ill do everything i can" I then stood up and hugged her parents and talked with them. I'm not sure what we talked about but i was very, eh I'm not sure. Its hard to remember but i do know that i was thanking them for everything they did and explain how much i missed their hospitality as well as there all around presences. I was explaining to them how much i really missed their daughter and how i was a fool for not trying to get her back and such. What even weirder is i wanted to ask them some things as well as ask about Connor, and just ask if they liked him better than me and just idk find out how they feel about it and if they missed me. I know I wanted to know because i felt myself outside of the dream trying to figure out how to ask it without coming across like a psycho. I never asked what i wanted to, we just talked about things i cant remember, and it feel great to be with her family again but she wasn't there and their was this empty feeling, but at the same time it was okay. I didn't want the dream to end, i really didn't. But it ended and before it did, we all said goodbye and things of that nature. I really didn't want it to end.
I cant really hide it, i do miss Christine.
I miss her being in my life.
But friends and family say she isn't worth it and at this point.
I must agree with them.
She has said things and done things that really hurt me.
I'm no longer going out of my way to patch things up anymore.
If all on her but the problem is, i know who she is.
Shes too scared and stubborn to actually talk to me or see how im doing.
So i guess ill just sit around.