Memories galore = shades of beautiful scarlett mixed with horrible jet black shades of withering
I woke up this morning with a melancholy felling, i rolled over and stared at the ceiling, i had a dream about Christine.
I don't remember anything of it, i wish i did but what i do know is that it was about her.
I woke up missing her and i guess the dream triggered a bunch of memories i had with her.
The one that kept going though my head was Christmas, when we both gave each other our presents.
I remember how happy she was when she opened her present, hell i don't think ill ever forget that. It was one of the happiest times of my life, her reaction, her smile, just her being her, i remember all of it.
And i miss all of it.
I was up before my alarm, just sitting and thinking about things.
When my alarm went off, i just sat there still staring at the ceiling, thinking about her, i was wondering if she ever thought about me, was wondering if she missed me or miss what we had, was thinking about when i should talk to her.
I managed to pull myself together and turn off the alarm and went back to bed but this time i sat up.
It was weird, when i sat in bed and looked up, i could of sworn i saw her sitting on my bed.
Which is funny because that's where we exchanged our presents.
I was 100% she was on my bed smiling at me, and i quickly did the typical thing of craziness and rubbed my eyes and slap myself to make sure i was awake, she was no longer there but i was awake.
Things today were just, odd, random things popped up with random memories and random feelings, i missed her, and i cant hide that fact.
I thought about how we use to walk together during the rain storms and when i surprised her with a kiss in the rain, she loved it.
It was nice to think about those things again.
I was actually happy with thinking about things but like all things, they never last.... well obviously.
After class things died down, i drove home and it was a good ride home.
Played a few games and it was a good time
Then things took a turn for the worse.
Facebook ugh, i know its silly, i know how fuckin silly it is.
But it seem as if Facebook brings nothing but pain and misery these days, everything from war, political fighting, sad stories of bs with little things that say like or share if you agree.
But worst of all, it sickens me to see Christine's new boyfriend say "stunning or absolutely beautiful" It sickens me.
Whenever i see them, see anything of him or any involvement of him it just makes me want to vomit blood.
Seeing him say "stunning" made my heart sink into my stomach and i felt nothing but a deep loss.
He's a vile, inconsiderate, immoral traitorous bastard.
Complete trash who spawned from the lowest pits of filth.
And its scary because the last time i saw Christine i didn't know her.
She looks sickly, like she hasn't been eating and she shows tiredness in her eyes.
She's changed....he's changing her.
And shes nothing but a shadow of the girl i use to love.
I hope she's okay, i really hope she is.
But what it comes down too as of this moment.
I do miss her greatly, i miss what we had and i wish i had done some things different.....maybe i could of done this or that.
I just miss Christine, no.... i miss my Minnie.
But, if she came to me today and said "i make a mistake, please take me back" or anything of trying to rekindle things, im not sure what i would do.
I think i would say we will have to try again in the future.
Because as of this moment, everything that happened to me has left me with a sour taste in mouth.
Today was a very weird day.
Very weird...
I don't remember anything of it, i wish i did but what i do know is that it was about her.
I woke up missing her and i guess the dream triggered a bunch of memories i had with her.
The one that kept going though my head was Christmas, when we both gave each other our presents.
I remember how happy she was when she opened her present, hell i don't think ill ever forget that. It was one of the happiest times of my life, her reaction, her smile, just her being her, i remember all of it.
And i miss all of it.
I was up before my alarm, just sitting and thinking about things.
When my alarm went off, i just sat there still staring at the ceiling, thinking about her, i was wondering if she ever thought about me, was wondering if she missed me or miss what we had, was thinking about when i should talk to her.
I managed to pull myself together and turn off the alarm and went back to bed but this time i sat up.
It was weird, when i sat in bed and looked up, i could of sworn i saw her sitting on my bed.
Which is funny because that's where we exchanged our presents.
I was 100% she was on my bed smiling at me, and i quickly did the typical thing of craziness and rubbed my eyes and slap myself to make sure i was awake, she was no longer there but i was awake.
Things today were just, odd, random things popped up with random memories and random feelings, i missed her, and i cant hide that fact.
I thought about how we use to walk together during the rain storms and when i surprised her with a kiss in the rain, she loved it.
It was nice to think about those things again.
I was actually happy with thinking about things but like all things, they never last.... well obviously.
After class things died down, i drove home and it was a good ride home.
Played a few games and it was a good time
Then things took a turn for the worse.
Facebook ugh, i know its silly, i know how fuckin silly it is.
But it seem as if Facebook brings nothing but pain and misery these days, everything from war, political fighting, sad stories of bs with little things that say like or share if you agree.
But worst of all, it sickens me to see Christine's new boyfriend say "stunning or absolutely beautiful" It sickens me.
Whenever i see them, see anything of him or any involvement of him it just makes me want to vomit blood.
Seeing him say "stunning" made my heart sink into my stomach and i felt nothing but a deep loss.
He's a vile, inconsiderate, immoral traitorous bastard.
Complete trash who spawned from the lowest pits of filth.
And its scary because the last time i saw Christine i didn't know her.
She looks sickly, like she hasn't been eating and she shows tiredness in her eyes.
She's changed....he's changing her.
And shes nothing but a shadow of the girl i use to love.
I hope she's okay, i really hope she is.
But what it comes down too as of this moment.
I do miss her greatly, i miss what we had and i wish i had done some things different.....maybe i could of done this or that.
I just miss Christine, no.... i miss my Minnie.
But, if she came to me today and said "i make a mistake, please take me back" or anything of trying to rekindle things, im not sure what i would do.
I think i would say we will have to try again in the future.
Because as of this moment, everything that happened to me has left me with a sour taste in mouth.
Today was a very weird day.
Very weird...