Just another day

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Im terrified of the day Chris is coming home. I know hes going to be home for a while but everday is a day closer to him leaving for Iraq. Of course I'm excited for going back to Vegas but its not the same if hes not going to be there with me. Its not like he was there with me all the while but its not the same. Being married for this long and it not being a fraud makes it completly different then going around dicking around. I'm just really terrified of whats going to happen when it comes time to finally leave virginia and start all over again with out him. The inconsitancy is whats killing me. It gets harder every time he gets home to the point of where I dont want him there. i get so frustrated with doing things by myself everyday and him coming home and helping me. Something simple as sleeping has becime such a burdon. When before I coldnt sleep with out him being there. The novelty has worn off of pretending i live by myself. In reality I do. I have a three bedroom house to me and my dog. Yeah I have a roommate but hes in the Navy as well.
Ugh i need to go to wall mart im going to make chris a welcome home sign.