run like the wind.
i feel so empty. somehow something has been taken away from me and i don't even know what that something is. i was so excited for you to come and now im stuck feeling like i do. it was just a waste of time and i knew that from the get but still. i guess i just thought it would be different. you're a cool / good guy but ill never do it again. i just feel shitty. im going to turn a new leaf. im going to stop trying to make other people so damn happy and worry about myself for once. this is a promise to myself : i will be me one hundred percent of the time. i will do whatever i want in order to make myself happy. i just want to be proud of myself again. i feel like all i've been doing lately is disappointing and shaming myself. im going home this weekend and i think this trip is waht i need. to just get away from everything up here. spend time with family. see a couple good friends and call it a day. i just want to feel good again.. we'll see how this turns out. im pretty sure it will be for the better but who knows. life throws me curveballs way too fucking often and im so tired of this unpredictability.
dunzo.
dunzo.