where is your boy tonight, i hope he is a gentleman.....

[xokelsey66]

keep quiet. nothing comes as easy as u. can i lay in ur bed all day. ill be ur best kept secret and ur biggest mistake...fallout boy

im a mess of emotions, thats for damn sure
all boiling together
confusing the shyt out of me
no one is perfect
y cant i be happy with having a good guy
who actually cares for me
i am crazy
i am coming to the conclusion that i want to be happy
happy within my self and my heart
rite now im not happy
i feel lyk im just letting him fall deeper
while im trying to hold on to the rope
to pull my self out
but do i have the strength?
can i lift myself out of this mess?
without breaking
i will break
if i get out
i will be sad and most likely feel regret
this is y i must be 100% positive
that way no matter how sad i get
i will kno where im going
and to not go back
if i break it up with him
thats it
i wont ever be able to get back with him
and thats hard to deal with
but one thing i do kno
a heart and feelings are not something to fuc with
i dont want to fucc up his head
i dont want him to be lyk me
fucced up from assholes
rite now just my thoughts are telling me its done
y cant i be happy with wut i have
maybe i just want to be free
free of commiment
free to be with whoever i want
even if that is just one person
i dont lyk to be held by these chains
untie them!!!