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[xojustmeox]

I haven't updated this thing since I left for SHU. Wow. Time really has gone by super fast. I finished all my homework and now I don't feel like cleaning so I've decided to update. I've been at college now for almost 5 months and I have to say it has been nothing short of amazing. Sure, it's has had it's ups and downs but I've learned so much and met some amazing people and had some amazing times. College is definitly making up for the lack of amazingness in High School. Being away has also made me realize where I fit. Coming home on breaks and stuff, I feel like an outsider. The only part I truly enjoy is catching up on sleep, seeing my fam, and friends from other towns. When it comes to people I thought were my true friends it seems like we have nothing in common any more. When I was on winter break people made me feel as though I was betraying them because I've made new friends and I have moved on. As much as it sounds self centered, I'm glad I've gotten over rhs and how unhappy I was in high school. My home is here now, Seton Hall Univeristy and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm glad I've grown up and finally started doing things and surrounding myself with people that make me happy.

On the flip side, boys have been a big subject lately. I came to college expecting to find *him*, the boy of my dreams. Obviously, this hasn't happened yet. But honestly, for the first time I'm ok with it. I'm glad i'm single and now is giving me the chance to meet new guys and figure out what I want out of a boyfriend. To be completely honest I don't think i'm even ready to be in a comitted realtionship yet. I want to enjoy my life and be able to make myself happy before I have to worry about someone else. I have my whole life to find *him* and if it takes longer than I hoped than so be it, I'll roll with the punches.