Jan 17, 2005 00:55
Hello everyone! I've turned into a grandma over the past week or so. Let's recap my days! I wake up with the sun...literally (mostly anyway), then I proceed to get ready for the day. I then travel off to class, where I spend 3 hours total. After filling my brain with seemingly useless information, I go to work to look at more text books! After a million hours at work, I come home...around 10pm. At this point I am exausted, yes, but sleep in not yet an option. It's at this point I read the million and one chapters assigned! After I can no longer keep my eyes open, I go to sleep, only to start with the sun again the next day! Oh yes, and I eat too if time permits!
But really it feels so wonderful to be working, it makes me feel as if I have more of a purpose. I really do love my job and hope that I get to keep it after the rush is done. I work at Gray's by the way! I have had two managers tell me that I have a pretty good chance of staying on..so I really really hope so! It feels nice to have a steady income and not have to go to my mom and be like "mom, i've been driving on empty for 33 miles...can you please put a little bit of money into my account so I can drive to the store to get my medicine...Thank you, I really appreciate it more than you know!" It's just one of those things you know! And two of the first things I'm doing when I get my paycheck on Friday is getting both a manicure and a pedicure. It's been much too long and all woman deserve to have that sort of pampering!
Anyway, I was kind of sad today during chapter, well not during our chapter, but the "diamond sister" meeting because I felt really isolated. It's just that I love Chi Omega so much and I want to be initiated so bad. It makes me sad that everyone else is getting initiated and I'm not...I'm happy for them yes, but I want it so bad! It also makes me sad that the new members we are taking here in a few weeks are going to be initiated before me. I understand it and I'm not meaning to complain. I just can not even begin to explain how much I want to know the ritual and the other info because of how much I love being a part of this sorority. Amber and Jill said not to get discouraged and let them know if I (well any of us) feel alienated...but how am I not supposed to feel alienated? But anyway, I'm done gripping about that! It's nothing I can change, so I must accept it! I know that everything will work out and that when I actually do get initiated, it will be that much more special!
Anyhow, I must be off to bed now! (the grandma in me!) I hope that you all are doing well! Oh, and new members who live on campus, I really think you should move into the house! It's a lot of fun and you'll have a downstairs room with the best bathroom! Also, it would be really messed up to have someone else either have to pay lots of money since they don't already live on campus or have their pin pulled because you wouldn't do things the easy way! I promise it will be ok and you'll be around girls that you care about and care about you too! Ok, I'm done being pushy for a moment!
Good night to everyone and I hope you have a lovely Martin Luther King Jr. Day!!
*~*Jamie*~*