If you got the money honey We got your disease
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
Its been too fucking long, and i am sick of it, i cant fuckin take it anymore, i am like inches away from calling him everyday (but i dont know his nummber, but i could get it in a blink of an eye ) but i just know him too fucking well..it almost makes me sick..ohh well this summer i'll take care of this shit, anyway i have to
It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
i am ready for something new, and different and when i want, not after i want them, or when i really dont care cuz thats how it always happends...almost everytime in MI it happend after i wanted them or way before i knew i wanted them, and in ME i really didnt give a shit..and that isnt really that fair lol
god my family is falling apart, literally..my grandpa has "blatter cancer", my dad has a thyroid problem and something else that he wont even tell me, my little sister has a serious virse/bacteria that could give her M fucking S, and sal has something else that isnt a hemaroid, or alcer its soo much worse but its the symptoms of those two...wtf? i am just waiting for carlo to get like flees or lice or something and for my mom to hit meto-pause and have a break down...ugh!
i really really think i have a broken heart like this:
i am happy for you LAUREN! he is soo hott, and funny and you soo need this and should have it more then anyone! even though it is another mexican haha Its soo awsome, you to are awsome