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I don't write much anymore.. I haven't really had time.. It's always school and work. I feel like I'm never at home enough to fully let myself rest, even at night. I've been waking up at exactly 4 a.m. everyday, and then I can't go back to sleep. Frankly, it's ridiculous and I'm not happy about it. School is alright... I'm not totally there anymore. I feel like i daydream too much, but I catch myself doing it again and again. I'm failing math. The best aren't always the brightest [haha]. Work is good when I'm working with the right person.... I can't really explain much more about my life seeing as I myself have no idea whats going on. It's sad to say that not only do I not know whats going on.. I don't care either. It'll come to me eventually.... I haven't used Baby in so long because I don't do anything anymore. I used to be so excited about my photography, and now I don't even care. Whats the sense? I don't care about anything. I just do what I want.. My parents don't tell me to do things anymore. I think they think I'm going to be a failure in life. Theyre upset that I want to take a year off before college to just travel and do what I want. They don't think its good for me because I won't go back to school. But seriously college isn't for everyone. I've been frustrated with a lot of things lately.. But otherwise, life is perfect. :) Snowboardings been good, can't wait for surfing this summer. And as I write this, for some reason I'm sitting in my bathing suit. I wish I had pictures to post with this because it makes it all the more interesting. Unfortunately I don't. I like how it gets dark only around 7ish now. Finally! I can't wait for summer in general. I miss its comfort and warmth, always.. The beach and going to boston all the time, jonny rockets and smoking massive amounts of cigarettes on thayer street.. cheese fries, bacon, and lighting napkins on fire.. weiners at new york lunch @ 2 a.m., late movies and coming home when it starts to get light outside.. waterfires and being in providence almost every single night.. walking in the bus tunnel lol.. antonio's all the time and the opium man.. I miss it, and I can't wait for this summer. I'm sure it's going to be better than last summer.
I'd like to see you
But really I should stay away
And let you settle down
I've got no claims to your crown
I was the boss of you
And I loved you
You know I loved you