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Ive had the worst day of my high school career today. All Ive wanted to do all day is cry. I guess I deserve it for talking about her so badly but I could really care less. I want to leave Ferndale so bad. I'm not going to cause its to late. Ive just had a horrible day. If you believe anything she says I dont consider you my friend anymore. She's a horrible person and I dont want to deal with anyone protecting her.
I have no idea what to do about my sister. I have half a mind to tell my parents off but I dont think that will do any good seeing as I have many times before. I want to talk to someone about it and see if that helps. Not just my friends but someone in a much bigger authority but I dont want to cause trouble for the family.
I still want to tell off my aunt. I had a dream the other night that I did. I wish it were real.
I want to go on birth control. Five months in a row should qualify me I think.
I want to wake up tomorrow with my life back in order the way it was so many months ago. I want everything to change. How long have I been saying those five words: I want everything to change. To long.
Sometimes I say things that I dont mean to say. And I always give those things thought before I say it and it still comes out wrong. Im becoming so afraid to say things in front of someone because Im afraid that its stupid or it doesn't make sense.
A part of me doesn't want me to be a part of it anymore. I'm tired of being afraid. You dont make me feel that way but I do. I'm confused. I'm hurt. I dont know what to do anymore. I want change.
I wish I were laying in Derek's arms thinking of nothing. No school, no work, no drama, no family, no nothing. Im done with it all. I imagine thats the only place I can truly be happy these days. And I dont get many chances.
Who else is with me? Screw everything that makes you unhappy and gets in your way of making your life the best.
1. Tell that bitch off
2. Spend an amazing night with my boyfriend
3. Run through the park singing and screaming
4. Live my life to the fullest.
sounds good.
I have no idea what to do about my sister. I have half a mind to tell my parents off but I dont think that will do any good seeing as I have many times before. I want to talk to someone about it and see if that helps. Not just my friends but someone in a much bigger authority but I dont want to cause trouble for the family.
I still want to tell off my aunt. I had a dream the other night that I did. I wish it were real.
I want to go on birth control. Five months in a row should qualify me I think.
I want to wake up tomorrow with my life back in order the way it was so many months ago. I want everything to change. How long have I been saying those five words: I want everything to change. To long.
Sometimes I say things that I dont mean to say. And I always give those things thought before I say it and it still comes out wrong. Im becoming so afraid to say things in front of someone because Im afraid that its stupid or it doesn't make sense.
A part of me doesn't want me to be a part of it anymore. I'm tired of being afraid. You dont make me feel that way but I do. I'm confused. I'm hurt. I dont know what to do anymore. I want change.
I wish I were laying in Derek's arms thinking of nothing. No school, no work, no drama, no family, no nothing. Im done with it all. I imagine thats the only place I can truly be happy these days. And I dont get many chances.
Who else is with me? Screw everything that makes you unhappy and gets in your way of making your life the best.
1. Tell that bitch off
2. Spend an amazing night with my boyfriend
3. Run through the park singing and screaming
4. Live my life to the fullest.
sounds good.