Actual Update...
Hey!!
I decided that since I in college now and it hard to talk to everyone like everyday this would be an easy way to let people know what going on with me... So I gonna try starting live journal again.. we shall see how long it lasts! lol but I really gonna try!!
Its been a week and 2 days since I left home and moved in here.. If I said I was unhappy I would be lying because face it I am having the time of my life here. I love my roomates, I love the people I have meet, I love not living at home, I love not having to call and check in with my parents and having a cerfew, I love going to parties and yes getting drunk (well only like 2 times i have been really good because it not healthy for me to be drinking... with all my liver problems that I have had)and not having to come home to 2 unhappy parents waiting to punish me. I love it. But I would also be lying if I said I didnt miss Morgan, Mike, and my family and other close friends. I miss Morgan so much she is my best friend and the person I go to for everything.... she is the person that has been there for me through everything and she is the one person I kno i can go to with anything.. I love her so much! she is my best friend and I miss her more than anything. I really miss mike too.. it been harder than I thought it would be to be away from him.. i just miss him so much. there isnt like 1 second in the day i dont think about him or want to be with him. I know it gong to be hard but I know that we can make it and be together. I mean no one I have meet even comes close to comparing to mike and I just wish he was here with me or at least closer to me.
My brother went back to college today.. I miss him a lot.. we have definitely gotten closer since he left for school the first time. I miss him. and I miss my family a lot too. My dads having a hard time with my brother and I leaving kind of going through a little mid-life crisis. He bought a motorcycle. so that should keep him busy.. my mom doing better than I thought she would.. she coming to visit me tomorrow on the way back from fsu. I actually really looking forward to it.. I miss my mom. I know we fight a lot and she drives me nuts sometimes but I really miss her being there for me.. I know she still is there for me but she not like "here" anymore and I miss that.
College is really fun I mean yeah the classes are hard as hell and I have so much damn homework it crazy but I love it. Dorm life is awesome everyone should live the dorms it really is a great experience. there so much to do parties every nite and always something to go do even in a little town like here. there still tons to do if u want to. Parties are fun... free alchol is never bad but I really being good! I dont want to get to drunk and shit. Another thing that has made college really good is having danny here. having someone from highschool here with me makes me feel more at home.. I love danny he so fun and always there for u. Having him around is good he looks out for us girls and stuff which is awesome cuz when u go out to parties and stuff u really do need a guy to look out for u. guys are crazy here. lol anyways dannys dorm is always a party haha although his roomates are little crazy... they smoke to much... but they always have alcohol. lol wow I sound like such a alcholic but i swear I really dont drink that much some nites yeah but I watching how much cuz I really cant afford to drink to much because of my liver. I have to be super careful.. Well My roomates and I gonna do homework now... lol we seriously need too... I update again soon :)
I Love u guys! xoxo
Ryan Cabera Lyrics - Shine On (His New Song) I <3 it!
Giving every moment I had
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
You're done with one mile and onto another one thousand
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
I know you’ll be better off without me when I’m gone
You know you’re beautiful, you’re beautiful
Shine on
You were made to
Shine on
And you know I love you
And even if we can or can’t be friends,
I’ll be with you until the very end
So shine on
You were made to
It’s keeping me awake every night
But I can never seem to give up on you
I send up a prayer, then I’m onto another one thousand
But I can never seem to give up on you
I know you’ll be better off without me when I’m gone
You know you’re beautiful, you’re beautiful
Shine on
You were made to
Shine on
And you know I love you
And even if we can or can’t be friends,
I’ll be with you until the very end
So shine on
Yeah
Nobody’s wrong
Nobody’s right
Keep moving on
Shine on
Yeah
You were made to
Shine on
Shine on
You were made to
Shine on
And you know I love you
And even if we can or can’t be friends,
You’re gonna be brighter than you’ve ever been
So shine on
You’re gonna be just fine
Ooh, you’re gonna be all right, love
You’re gonna be just fine
Ooh, you’re gonna be all right, love