WHOA HAVENT UPDATED IN A LONG TIME!!!!!!
w0w ... i havent updated in a l0ng time ... well al0t has happened ... 0 yeah yesterday was thanksgiving .. happy turkey day every0ne!!! .. lol my thanksgiving suked maj0r balls .. my st0mach is realy weak s0 i puked 0ut everything i ate l0l .. s0 that kinda suked ... neways last night was realy realy bad!!! ... i havent spoken t0 wade in ab0ut a m0nth n a half and we never ofisually br0ke up ... s0 i figured that since he hasnt returned my calls never calls me never piks up his f0ne and erased his email we were 0ver and he was just trying to ignore me ... i mean C'm0n u would think that 2 after a month and a half of having abs0lutly n0 c0ntact with ur bf u w0uld think hes trying t0 tell u its 0ver!! n its been killing me n0t kn0eing y he was d0ing this 2 me and n0t talking to me cuz seri 0usly we used to talk non st0p he called me b4 sk00l and everything ... and then 0ne day it just st0ped and it killed me cuz i seriously l0ve him s0o0 much ... and then last night i was online minding my 0wn ... and s0me1 imed me n i didnt realy kn0 the sn but i was in a lazy ass mo0d and didnt feel like findign 0ut wh0 it was s0 i just went al0ng with it ... and they asked me if i had a b0yfriend .. n i was like i quess n0t ... (wat else am i sup0sed 2 think?) n then i signed 0ff but i was still 0nline 0n my f0ne .. and that same sn sent me a im 0n my f0ne and they were like wat if i told u i knew ur ex boyfriend .. n i was like .. do u know him ? and he was like maybee? and i was like wats his name ... and hes like wade howard ( n my heart went to my throat i was speachless) and i asked him y he hasnt been talkin to me or anythign and he said bc he got in big big trouble and hes not aloud to talk to anyone and i asked him wat he did and hes like i cant tell u so i was like w.e ... and then he imed me and was lie every since u wade started gonig out hes changed so much all he ever does is talk about u and how he cant talk to u now.. and hes walked away from so many girls .. and the finally made there cd for there band and he said that most of the songs on there were dedicated to me ... and i was like well i cant do anythign about that .. and hes like well i want the old wade back and im guna do anything in my power to hate u and break up with u ... and i was like y are u doindg this wat have i done 2 u .. and hes like not a thi ng but u did tell me that u didnt have a boyfriend anymore and i was like wat do expect me to think im still madly in l0ve with him but ehs been ign0ring me for the past MONTH N A HALF!! the 0nly thing i thouhgt is that it was 0ver and i just had to get over it ... and trust me i used to cry myslef to sleep 0ver this kid cuz i missed him n l0ved him s0 much n i didnt kn0w y this was happening .. and the kid was liek well if he wanted to break up with u he would of told u .. and i was liek but wat to u expect me to think ??!!! and hes like w.e im guna tell wade wat u said and im guna make him hate u!! and he signed off ... i was s0 upset i was crying like there was n0 t0m0r0w and i wanted t0 call s0me1 t0 talk t0 but there was n0 0ne i could call cuz it was liek 2 in the m0rning ... and n0w im bak to square 0ne constantly thinking about wade and beating myslef up 0ver him .. i l0ve him s0o0 much .. i realy can give a flying fuk wat anybody says .. hes the 0nli guy i wana b with right n0w and i l0ve him m0re than anything and now this kid is guna make him hate me ... so this realy sux and im s0 effing depressed n0w all i want is things to b bak to the way they used 2 .. but i wrote wade a letter and sent it in the mail this morning i know it sounds realy gay and desperate but its my only way i have left of contacting him and telling him that his friend is a fake and i still l0ve him .. i pray t0 g0d that he gets my letter and h0pefully writes me bak it w0uld mean the w0rld t0 me ... i truley d0 l0ve him and lately ive been trying t0 deny it cuz i th0ught we were 0ver n i was just guna have to get over and right wen i was starting to get 0ver it .. this happens s0 this completely sux!!! but im guna go so im guna start updating more but im guna split x0x