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these are supposed to be the days that everyone's finding out who they really are and who they will be in life. yet the longer time i have, the more confused i get. i guess i know my dreams are for my life. but i just wonder what God's plans are. and i guess everyone wants to know his plan for their lives. i just have this part of my dream will not be true. like maybe i dont have as much talent as my parents say i do. i dont know. but i know he'll bless this situation.
so what's going on in caitlin's life, you ask? well tj came home yesterday and of course my parents are spending as much time possible with him. and for once i dont really mind being the less-noticed child because i get more alone time. drama has been heating up. so within this next week, i prolly will become a little uncomfortable with my life even though it has been going exceptionally well lately. grades are good. and my family doesnt hate me. and i've been having i think a more open-minded look at life. but i still find myself looking for acceptance. i feel like nobody takes me seriously. like they assume i'm one way but i'm really not. and i know they're talking about me. because they get quiet when i get there. i dont know. maybe i'm overreacting. afterall, i'm just one person. and i guess i just want to know what i'm missing. my english teacher said the other day "hindsight is better than foresight" so i guess that means that it's much better to know what's behind your back than in front of your face. i just want people to grow up and start being REAL.
so what's going on in caitlin's life, you ask? well tj came home yesterday and of course my parents are spending as much time possible with him. and for once i dont really mind being the less-noticed child because i get more alone time. drama has been heating up. so within this next week, i prolly will become a little uncomfortable with my life even though it has been going exceptionally well lately. grades are good. and my family doesnt hate me. and i've been having i think a more open-minded look at life. but i still find myself looking for acceptance. i feel like nobody takes me seriously. like they assume i'm one way but i'm really not. and i know they're talking about me. because they get quiet when i get there. i dont know. maybe i'm overreacting. afterall, i'm just one person. and i guess i just want to know what i'm missing. my english teacher said the other day "hindsight is better than foresight" so i guess that means that it's much better to know what's behind your back than in front of your face. i just want people to grow up and start being REAL.