Happy Valentine's Day (a little late)
Today wasn't as absolutely awful as I was expected...largely impart to a much-needed snow day :-)
I spent the day in Kim and Christina's room doing absolutely nothing. I finished knitting an entire scarf, read a little, and basically watched liek 4 straight hours of Without a Trace lol which ive discovered is actually a pretty good show. We ordered chinese for dinner which was the best comfort food there could be and then we didnt have to venture out into the snow. Then there was a "study break" in the penthouse (12th floor of my building) where the Bandersnatchers (our all-male accapella group i love) sang <3 so that was fun and i got more chocolate and cookies lol Sadly a fire alarm went off around 11 and we were forced out into the snow...keep in mind i was wearing just a sweatshirt and sandals with socks. It was not so much fun. Now I'm sitting in my room watching 10 things. It's not making me sad :-) probly just cuz its so familiar and i love it so much its almost comforting.
I'm not quite sure why today didn't suck...i guess i should probly just accept that sometimes life can be ok. Everythings just been sort of blah lately, i can't manage to make myself feel what I want to feel. I'm also getting really bitter about the good thing thats happening for one of my friends when i really shouldnt be. I want her to be happy I really really do, I just sometimes kinda wish things like this could happen for me.
I can't complain about not having a miserable valentine's day, and believe me im not complaining at alllll. I just hate this in-between point. Not just with today, but with everything. I should be content with life being ok but for some reason I can't be, I feel like it should either be really really good or really really bad, and I hate that but I don't know how to accept other things.
Now that I've stopped making sense altogether I'm gonna just go and leave you all with love and hugs and kisses and the knowledge that i miss you WAY way much <3
Here's some lyrics of the song "Even Angels Fall" from 10 Things that I absolutely love...
You've found hope
You've found faith,
Found how fast she could take it away.
Found true love,
Lost your heart.
Now you don't know who you are.
She made it easy,
Made it free,
Made you hurt til you couldn't see.
Sometimes it stops,
Sometimes it flows,
But baby that is how love goes.
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
It's a secret no one tells;
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell.
It's no fairy tale;
Take it from me,
That's the way it's supposed to be.
You will fly and you will crawl;
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
You laugh, you cry, no one knows why
Behold the thrill of it all...
You're on the ride
You might as well
Open your eyes