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Yes, I wrote the father another letter.. here ill lett you read it Sir Jourbal and all who read thou... wtf.. lol anyways, here it is:
Dad now is your chance to be a caring father. I know that the crap Jessica is pulling is really frustrating. It is for us down here too. You need to sit Jessica down and talk to her. Stealing her car keys isn't going to solve a thing. There were many times i wasnt home for dinner you never did anything to me and I'm only 14. Jessica is damn near 18 and you're still trying to control her. Hey, wait! I've got a great idea! Why don't you give her to the state of Montana instead of taking responsibility for your own offspring. What are you going to do if Stefan turns out like us? Are you going to give him to the state of Montana? You can't stop Jess from making mistakes Dad.. she needs to realize what she's doing.
So let nature take its course and later on she'll look back and realize how stupid this is. She'll never learn if you won't let her. I hope you believe that I'm going to have a good life Dad. Because I have big dreams. I refuse to let them die. You've never showed belief in me, maybe that's why I;m so hostile towards you. I just want a father, is that too much to ask? I barely have money for scool supplies, much less for school clothes. You've never tried to help much with that. It would be great if you could. But I doubt you ever will. But I've made it this far. I plan on making it way farther. Give Jessica her car keys and let her make mistakes. That's what life is all about. I just have one question.. Do you still love us? Anyone or all of us? Amber, Jessica, or even Me.
I know it could be a crazy thought, but somtimes it's hard to tell with you. I want to hug you, but then i want to scream about how mad I am at you. You're my Dad, and I love you. Nothing can change that. I don;t know why I;m getting all sensitive. You don;t even know what the word sensitivity means. Why don't you ask your genius wife.
I really do need money for school stuff, hopefully that message gets across him. He needs to get his head out of his ass. Seriously.
Ive become increasingly antisocial lately, maybe its because people are getting more and more disgusting. By disgusting i mean, cheating backstabbing 2 faced fakes. What happend to the world. If there is a God he must be REALLLLLLLYYY disappointed. I sure as hell would be if i created this shit. If there is a God he should end the world very soon before things get worse. I hate how people use religion as an excuse... blah blah i murdered 2 children but i believe in god now so set me free ^_^. Then he goes out and kills 6 more children. Thats sick. People suck. Everyone is fake.
I realized tthe other day that i let people control me. I always try and see the best part of anybody. Then to later find out that they were fakes. I just cant trust anybody anymore. My own brother in law lied to me. Lied to me about everything. I believed everything he said. People take advantage of my feelings and just fuck me over. Im scared to even walk outside anymore. I should start taking my pills, like soon, nd not stop them. im starting to wash my hands alot too. Not because of germs just because they feel really dirty against my face. its wierd. im going crazy again, im having all these crazy thoughts. im scared its all coming back. All these fake poeple have got me thinking crazy again. I decided that if I did decide to kill myself successfully, i would mention in my note that politics is one of the reasons that i ended up the way i did. Politics have made people become fakes. America isn;t what is used to be. America is not great. America is not free. I mean wtf, we wasted millions of dollars on the production of Republican Ketchup... wtf.. What about the troops in the useless war thats supposed to be over? FUCK YOU AMERICA! Fuck you people. I hate most of you. And it's all because of the human mind. What ever happend to being yourself? what ever happend to that shit. Its useless because everyone else out there is fucking brainwashed, thats never happening to me. ever. i dont give a fuck whats sexy and whats not. that show on TLC "What Not To Wear" kills your confidence. It kills and embarrasses you. its a useless show. i feel sorrow for everyone whos on it. im so sick of these corporate designer tags and fucking anorexic models.
Dad now is your chance to be a caring father. I know that the crap Jessica is pulling is really frustrating. It is for us down here too. You need to sit Jessica down and talk to her. Stealing her car keys isn't going to solve a thing. There were many times i wasnt home for dinner you never did anything to me and I'm only 14. Jessica is damn near 18 and you're still trying to control her. Hey, wait! I've got a great idea! Why don't you give her to the state of Montana instead of taking responsibility for your own offspring. What are you going to do if Stefan turns out like us? Are you going to give him to the state of Montana? You can't stop Jess from making mistakes Dad.. she needs to realize what she's doing.
So let nature take its course and later on she'll look back and realize how stupid this is. She'll never learn if you won't let her. I hope you believe that I'm going to have a good life Dad. Because I have big dreams. I refuse to let them die. You've never showed belief in me, maybe that's why I;m so hostile towards you. I just want a father, is that too much to ask? I barely have money for scool supplies, much less for school clothes. You've never tried to help much with that. It would be great if you could. But I doubt you ever will. But I've made it this far. I plan on making it way farther. Give Jessica her car keys and let her make mistakes. That's what life is all about. I just have one question.. Do you still love us? Anyone or all of us? Amber, Jessica, or even Me.
I know it could be a crazy thought, but somtimes it's hard to tell with you. I want to hug you, but then i want to scream about how mad I am at you. You're my Dad, and I love you. Nothing can change that. I don;t know why I;m getting all sensitive. You don;t even know what the word sensitivity means. Why don't you ask your genius wife.
I really do need money for school stuff, hopefully that message gets across him. He needs to get his head out of his ass. Seriously.
Ive become increasingly antisocial lately, maybe its because people are getting more and more disgusting. By disgusting i mean, cheating backstabbing 2 faced fakes. What happend to the world. If there is a God he must be REALLLLLLLYYY disappointed. I sure as hell would be if i created this shit. If there is a God he should end the world very soon before things get worse. I hate how people use religion as an excuse... blah blah i murdered 2 children but i believe in god now so set me free ^_^. Then he goes out and kills 6 more children. Thats sick. People suck. Everyone is fake.
I realized tthe other day that i let people control me. I always try and see the best part of anybody. Then to later find out that they were fakes. I just cant trust anybody anymore. My own brother in law lied to me. Lied to me about everything. I believed everything he said. People take advantage of my feelings and just fuck me over. Im scared to even walk outside anymore. I should start taking my pills, like soon, nd not stop them. im starting to wash my hands alot too. Not because of germs just because they feel really dirty against my face. its wierd. im going crazy again, im having all these crazy thoughts. im scared its all coming back. All these fake poeple have got me thinking crazy again. I decided that if I did decide to kill myself successfully, i would mention in my note that politics is one of the reasons that i ended up the way i did. Politics have made people become fakes. America isn;t what is used to be. America is not great. America is not free. I mean wtf, we wasted millions of dollars on the production of Republican Ketchup... wtf.. What about the troops in the useless war thats supposed to be over? FUCK YOU AMERICA! Fuck you people. I hate most of you. And it's all because of the human mind. What ever happend to being yourself? what ever happend to that shit. Its useless because everyone else out there is fucking brainwashed, thats never happening to me. ever. i dont give a fuck whats sexy and whats not. that show on TLC "What Not To Wear" kills your confidence. It kills and embarrasses you. its a useless show. i feel sorrow for everyone whos on it. im so sick of these corporate designer tags and fucking anorexic models.