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alrite so im lettin all of you no that this is a pointless emo entry that if you dont want to listen to me bitch then dont read!
well so today was weird as i updated earlier so yeah and then later i met up with cassie and robbie after jason left..to go to woodland ( alrite this needs explaining so he got 170$ and he wanted to sell to get more money wich he wouldnt get I NO IT! but yeah after i told him i didnt want him do it he goes any ways.. thats why he left)so yeah so i get there and i guess robbie got hella money and he bought me and cassies v-day presents early so i got a chocolate rose it was the best part of my day! so yeah and then we got and meet up with nora and randy at dino park.. so we kick it there. and then robbie goes and gets me a bottle for just me.. and i drink all of it and im really kewl.. but yeah i guess im gettin a tux to karas prom... hehe!! it shal be great! but yeah so i kick it there drunk for a while and then i go home.. so i guess i was kinda late so i ran most of he way home.. AH! it was tiring!! and then i get home and rachelle calls and we talk for days and it was GREAT! i miss that gurl.. damn crazy times tho.. but yeah so then jason calls and then i go out and meet him and shit and hes acting weird like he wont touch me and he keeps laying down and then hes all "i have to go home.." he NEVER says that so i automaticly no hes drunk! and the thing is i no i should be mad over this cuz i drink all the time.. but i just care way way way to much about him.. and i get soo scared..but yeah just it was dumb and i started crying when he left.. and then i called cassie and talked to her for a bit and then jason called and i talked to him..and i just kept crying and crying for like wat...4 hours and then i just stopped ish and wrote this.. i just cant believe he would be so dumb and drink that much AGAIN! gawsh i am just dissapointed in him!! gah and then i stared thinking about the whole sex thing and i got real depresed cuz i relized i did that when i was stoned and shit and it wasnt how i wanted it to be... gawsh today kinda sucked and today was sposed to be great rite.. well it fuckin failed and jason failed and i failed and gawsh....he told me he loved me again and i told him not to say it unless he meant it and then we got in a fat argument about if he loves me or not.. gawsh i feel like such shit.. i feel like a bitch a mean nasty bitchy gurl friend and i dont want that i dont want to be the bitch that yells at him wen he strolls by drunk as fuck at 12 at night.. omg...
this all makes me want to cry again...wish granted...i fail
i suck at be alive i want to try the whole dead thing now please...
i no i no shut the fuck up im emo and you can all kiss my ass for wat you think..
well so today was weird as i updated earlier so yeah and then later i met up with cassie and robbie after jason left..to go to woodland ( alrite this needs explaining so he got 170$ and he wanted to sell to get more money wich he wouldnt get I NO IT! but yeah after i told him i didnt want him do it he goes any ways.. thats why he left)so yeah so i get there and i guess robbie got hella money and he bought me and cassies v-day presents early so i got a chocolate rose it was the best part of my day! so yeah and then we got and meet up with nora and randy at dino park.. so we kick it there. and then robbie goes and gets me a bottle for just me.. and i drink all of it and im really kewl.. but yeah i guess im gettin a tux to karas prom... hehe!! it shal be great! but yeah so i kick it there drunk for a while and then i go home.. so i guess i was kinda late so i ran most of he way home.. AH! it was tiring!! and then i get home and rachelle calls and we talk for days and it was GREAT! i miss that gurl.. damn crazy times tho.. but yeah so then jason calls and then i go out and meet him and shit and hes acting weird like he wont touch me and he keeps laying down and then hes all "i have to go home.." he NEVER says that so i automaticly no hes drunk! and the thing is i no i should be mad over this cuz i drink all the time.. but i just care way way way to much about him.. and i get soo scared..but yeah just it was dumb and i started crying when he left.. and then i called cassie and talked to her for a bit and then jason called and i talked to him..and i just kept crying and crying for like wat...4 hours and then i just stopped ish and wrote this.. i just cant believe he would be so dumb and drink that much AGAIN! gawsh i am just dissapointed in him!! gah and then i stared thinking about the whole sex thing and i got real depresed cuz i relized i did that when i was stoned and shit and it wasnt how i wanted it to be... gawsh today kinda sucked and today was sposed to be great rite.. well it fuckin failed and jason failed and i failed and gawsh....he told me he loved me again and i told him not to say it unless he meant it and then we got in a fat argument about if he loves me or not.. gawsh i feel like such shit.. i feel like a bitch a mean nasty bitchy gurl friend and i dont want that i dont want to be the bitch that yells at him wen he strolls by drunk as fuck at 12 at night.. omg...
this all makes me want to cry again...wish granted...i fail
i suck at be alive i want to try the whole dead thing now please...
i no i no shut the fuck up im emo and you can all kiss my ass for wat you think..