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My heart is beating to heavily for me to breathe, and yet I stand there gasping for air. I'm not nervous I'm just completely lost at every possible crossroad. Summer is here, but I've yet to feel it. I'm a bit isolated because of my location...but it shouldn't stop me, I know better. So far, this summer...I've become better acquainted with myself. I say things that I wouldn't normally say out loud. I'm looking into this thing they call "impulse" I am trying so hard to grow a personality, not shaped to anyones liking...but, into a form that is ideal to who I am. So, I suppose what I'm trying to say is...I'm trying to understand what the hell is going on around me, and how everything effects my meek excuse for a personality. I don't want to be unopposed to having no opinion for the rest of my healthy life. I want to be articulate and assertive...this is what I want, but do I really need it? I have no fucking clue.